Me, talking about the things that I find interesting or general stuff that's going on in my life.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
:(
Friday, December 23, 2005
As predicted.
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
A completely sexist comment...
Plenty of totty on show last night.
Monday, December 19, 2005
Xmas bash
The issue is that it's our work's Xmas bash tomorrow night and I really can't see myself being in the mood to go - especially if I'm coming down off this bug/'flu thing. Plus, the Lickable Girl from work's not even going, which is a crying shame as this would really reduce the perving opportunities (plus there is/was a real chance to have an actual conversation with her rather than just say "hello" and then grab a sneaky perv). Damnit.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Why has no-one thought of this before?
Luckily none of my female friends know this site exists. They'd be more than willing to put my name up there, no doubt!
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
And it's over to you...
However, to completely negate what I've just said, tonight was the very last night of my Tuesday thing. PD was there and we had a good giggle as per usual plus, when she leant over to whisper to me, I couldn't help but get an eyeful of her rack which is absolutely magnificent.
Anyway, we caught up on our respective weekends (it transpires that I was in the right place until a last minute decision was made by other parties) and upcoming Christmas plans. As we parted company, the ball was left firmly in her court regarding heading out for a drink (she has all my contact details and I have none of hers) so it's a matter of waiting to see if she chooses to call. I see no reason why she shouldn't - we hit it off pretty well and have had fun over the past few months. I'm fairly upbeat about this, though with my usual reservations about whether she actually will call. There's also the fact that I'm not entirely sure what it is I'm looking for from this friendship. She would be a good friend, I feel, but she is cute and sexy and she also seems to be quite high maintenance. The first two are no problem, but if it ever developed beyond just friends, then the last thing would be a real issue.
I think I'm just getting ahead of myself though.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
See?
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Result!
Cutting it close.
The countdown!
The one guy I hoped I'd be meeting is off visiting friends today, so it's unlikely he'll be back in time (and if so, probably won't be in the mood as it involves a lot of travelling). Bah.
Thursday, December 08, 2005
No, no, no!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Let's see what happens.
I think I know where she'll be on Saturday night, or more accurately, I know where she thinks she'll be so if I can get some social chums together, that could be something to organise. These things have a habit of never going according to plan though.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Note to self...
Muppet.
Got an inkling tonight that PD might be a bit high maintenance though, so perhaps something might not develop (beyond what I'd spoken about anyway).
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Titles are one thing I can never think of.
"She's your type", said E.
I couldn't see, but she did have dark hair, so that was a start.
I later caught a glance at the unknown girl and bloody hell, if E wasn't spot on. Dark, shoulder length hair (well, probably slightly longer, but who's picky?), dark eyes, a nice figure and a really nice smile.
However, I was too busy trying to see down E's top as she'd worn a top with a bit of a plunging neckline. Meanwhile, E was perving at the DJ, but he looked incredibly young.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Weird mood.
Oh. She's just replied. Can't do tonight, but we've provisionally made arrangements for next Friday. Gives me something to look forward to next weekend.
Denied!
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Tonight.
The final telly totty?
Friday, November 11, 2005
Yet another television babe.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Another day of perving.
An email from USHW has prompted some thought...
I think I need to find out if she's single or what the score is there. There was a story that went around that one of her ex-colleagues tried it on at every opportunity which suggests to me that she was single at the time, so I'll take that as a positive step. The issue is that I am quite a private person, so if I try and find out, I'll also be trying to keep it quiet around work and specifically my work-mates. That's the tricky part. I could easily find out tomorrow if she's single, but the entire world would know that I was hunting down that information. That's the last thing I want.
If I can find out her relationship status and keep it from my colleagues, who knows what I might do next?
I think the next most likely option is that something develops between me and PD, but as I said yesterday, if anything, it's just case of lust on my part and would be unlikely to develop into anything other than a fuck or series of fucks at best (from a non-platonic point of view). I've not met many women where that would be seen as an acceptable option, though. All we can do is see what happens...
USHW suggested a leap of faith with E, but that'll never happen. If something did happen with E, it would be E who made the first move. I'm not prepared to risk that friendship.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Another good looking girl from the telly.
Things trundle on.
I wonder if she fancies a fuck buddy?
FFS!
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Following on...
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Ah...
In the middle of hunting out a few pictures, I came across Nicole de Boer. It has to be said that the likeness between Nicole de Boer and gorgeous, Lickable Girl from work is quite astounding. Now all I have to do is nip across to http://uk.imdb.com and see what she's in so I can tune in!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
More... more... more?
On another note, I was drunk all weekend. Friday night - monthly work's do. Some totty to stare at, but it was all from work. I try not to do that, if possible. All sorts of gossip and scandal breaks out once you shag a girl from work. Saturday night, went to my sis's. Drank too much and watched scary movies on the telly. Brilliant night. Went to a pub quiz on Sunday and got blootered. Won a bottle of vodka, too. Rock on!
Next weekend? Who knows. FP's suggested a night out and I'd like to see if E fancies a drink, too.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Have I already asked?
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Recharge.
Still... yesterday I took the first step in licking my finances into shape by organising an 0% credit card. Capital One are doing one that's 0% until January 2007, which should knock a huge hole in my current level of debt.
I still have to sort ANOTHER card for my other credit card, but one thing at a time. Once the Capital One card has been sorted, I'll transfer the balance of my other to a 0% card and cancel the accounts with my current cards. I won't actually save money each month, but the money I pay out (the same amounts as I'm currently paying) will be knocked off my credit card debts each month. Hurrah!
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Dreams.
On Thursday night, I had a particularly vivid dream about myself and QC2. I used to have a huge crush on QC2 from ages ago. Even now, I think that, physically, she still represents a lot of the things I look for in a woman. Brown, shoulder length hair, dark eyes and an ideal body shape - thin(ish), but with curves. Anyway, in this dream that I'd had, we were married. That was the bit that was most vivid - there were other, silly dream things going on (our town was being attacked by cartoon zombies or something), but it was the relationship between myself and QC2 that really stuck out. It wasn't disturbing or anything, I just thought it was weird. (No complaints about being married to a stunning brunette, though!)
I had another dream last night that was fresh in my memory this morning for being particularly weird and vivid, but I can't remember too much about it except that I think I was in a band of some kind.
I'm really tired though, so I doubt I'll remember too much tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get a really good night's sleep tonight.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Meh
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
What's this?
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Just a little longer...
Monday, October 10, 2005
In between
My social life is probably going to pick up over the next few months at least, which I'm looking forward to.
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Still here (barely)
This week's been quite busy. On Thursday I met with MA2 and AM for a meal and to catch up, which was excellent. I haven't seen them in months. We had a good chat over a couple of hours and hopefully, we'll see each other again sooner rather than later.
My sister moved house this weekend from literally 30 seconds around the corner to a few miles up the road. The work I did helping them shift was probably the hardest two days of physical labour I've ever done in my like (all of my jobs have been mostly admin or I.T. related, so physical labour isn't something I've done a lot of). I'm still feeling the after effects of three days of shifting lots of boxes and stuff around.
The girl who bought my sister's house was lovely and she had a cracking set of friends. I tried to have a conversation with them while we we moving, but it's hard to start a conversation when you're shifting heavy furniture around and only passing reach other in the hallway. It's a shame though, they seemed nice and it would have been nice to see if anything had developed - I had the strangest feeling that something could have with one of them. It's frustrating when that happens.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Ah well...
WTF?
I had a thing for her, and I truly believed that a fuck was likely, though nothing more given the circumstances, but we ended up being good friends. Good friends in that I haven't heard from her since last November, which is a pity given my obsession with my friends staying in contact.
Still, the feeling that I had lasted a few hours and I desperately wanted to talk to her again, and then it left. Weird. What's probably more weird is that, I never once thought about calling her, even though I have her mobile number stored in my phone.
I still have a good beer buzz on. I might try her now...
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Still alive.
Things are starting to fall into place. I'm getting a pay rise this month which should ease the finances a bit, plus with my new 0% credit card, I can start paying off some of the (huge) balance I have as well as put some cash by for savings. I've been meaning to do this for the past few months, but never got around to it.
Nothing else has changed, really. Work's still fine, the social life is still non-existent (more on that later) and I'm going to the gym.
So far, I've only managed to get to the gym about once per week since I've joined. Work's sorta cuppered that with a few late night meetings etc. on my gym days. It's started to settle down, so I can now realistically aim for at least twice per week, especially now that GC produced a fitness plan for me.
The social life is, as I said above, still dead. Hopefully not for very much longer, though. A mate will be more available within the next fortnight for socialising (weekends - beer and midweek - squash). Plus, the guys in work are starting to get a bit more together, which should mean a few more nights out on the piss.
All in all, things are starting to look up, even though they're not exactly down. Hurrah.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
What a tangled web we weave.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Today, I have been mostly thinking about...
Friday, August 26, 2005
Where should I be?
There are two reasons: the bar in which the soiree is happening and the fact I'm skint until pay day. The skint thing could be overcome - at least to scrape enough together for a night out, but the motivation is gone due to the bar which I detest. If it had been another bar, chances are, I would have made the effort.
On a positive note, I heard from USHW today who very kindly presented me with an Amazon voucher in return for a roof over her head at our recent get together with a group of acquaintances in April. That's already been put to good use.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Hmmm.
I do, however, know a few bars that GC does like. I might see her around one of those as they're haunts that I frequent, too.
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
I am going to be single FOREVER!
From my search results, I have now decided that every single woman under the sun thinks she is spontaneous (but it still takes them an hour to dress before leaving the house), likes fine wine and restaurants (and I hate wine and eating out). Not a good start then!
Not too many girls are into footy either, I've noticed. Not that I'm a big footy fan - I'll watch my team, but I'm not footy obsessed. In fact, apart from a few physcial features, there's not much on dating websites for me.
Looks like it's back to getting drunk down the pub and lusting after gorgeous (but probably taken) girls. Heh, heh.
Monday, August 15, 2005
Mind fuck.
Other things are seen to be much more acceptable. Speed dating, for example, is taking off in a big way here in the U.K. and it doesn't have the stigma attached to it that online dating does. I've no qualms about meeting people online - I've done it many times over the course of the past five years that I've been an internet regular with my online responsibilities. Some people have been friends and others have been more than that (for a day or so - no relationships). I'm not sure why this subject ended up occupying my thoughts for most ofd the day - I'm fairly happy at the moment, so it's not as if I'm on the lookout for female companionship. That's part of the confusion.
So, I was saying to A that there weren't too many people from our mutual internet venture that I'd consider dating and that actually going looking to these people for a romatntic relationship was something I'd never considered. That was a slight fib. There was one person that, if the geography had been right, I might have made a move for. Her name was M. I haven't seen or heard from M in nearly three years. I left the country about three years ago and we kept in touch vis MSN and email until she suddenly returned to her parent's house and lost internet contact. Her disappearance was so sudden that I didn't get a chance to get an address or anything off of her. Apart from the odd fleeting glimpse of M on MSN (where we swapped pictures and she looked gorgeous), that's been it. I've tried to leave her messages via our mutual venture, but they've gone unanswered.
Until today.
The first time in ages I think of her, and she makes an appearance. Luckily, rather than just swap stories and history, I was sensible and got her email address. Now, if she doesn't appear on the mutual venture anymore, I can still get in contact. Nothing's goping to happen romantically though. I know that now. The geography is still a huge negative factor and she's been seeing a bloke for about a year and they could be moving in together. It still brought about a pang of disappointment though.
I'm still not sure why this has fucked with my head apart from the co-incidence of thinking of M and her appearance. Maybe it's partly the lack of sleep from the weekend. Things might be a bit clearer later in the week after some proper sleep.
I'll let you know.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Bad habits.
I've not done much over the past few days. I've struggled to the gym once or twice, but not before work (which is my eventual aim as going after work requires more motivation). My nephew was around today and I got a few hours to play with him. Work's trundling along nicely at the moment - I seem to have fallen into place as my boss's second in command (completely unofficially, of course) which is nice to have as a vote of confidence and should help me in future, but there are other factors (that I don't want to go into here) that make it a frustrating experience, too.
The social life still sucks ass, although it has been slightly busier over the past few weeks. It should continue to be busier than usual for another few weeks, but who knows what's going to happen beyond that?
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Argh!
I'm hoping that things will go well and I'll get more into the gym though. I really need to lose the weight and I really want to tone up my tum area.
Monday, August 01, 2005
The way forward.
Secondly, if/when I do see someone, I really should be more forward in making contact. I used to be terrible shy, but I'm not that bad these days, so it shouldn't really be an issue.
So, I'm looking forward to seeing me get more success in the coming months...
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
The Gym.
So, I have another appointment with the lovely GC next week (who was indeed easy on the eye) to get me through an initial session and draw up a plan for me to follow on my own, then I should get back to her every 4 to 6 weeks to adjust my fitness plan based on my goals, targets and ability.
I am looking forward to it and hopefully I shall see results sooner rather than later. Actually, if I am to keep this up, seeing some sort of results quite soon is probably a necessity.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Gym.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Mr Motivator.
Friday, July 22, 2005
Weird day.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Lickable girls.
Not that I'm complaining at the perving opportunities, mind you!
Monday, July 18, 2005
Body language.
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Gym.
- getting rid of my belly and by association, 'love handles' which are far too large for my liking
- getting some upper body strength
Things to do...
- Arrange induction at gym (yes, I finally handed in my gym forms, now all I need is an induction and a general exercise plan for attaining my exercise goals.)
- Buy my nephew a birthday pressie. It's his birthday next week.
- Start planning some trips to visit friends during the autumn and winter.
The weekend.
Saturday night was spent out with my sister, bro-in-law and a few friends in a belated birthday celebration, which was also good fun. I also got some perving in at a cute waitress, which was nice. Was awoken at 7am this morning by my nephew who was staying over. I guess I'll be having an early night tonight.
Now spending a lazy Sunday reading and generally doing nothing in particular. Bliss.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Monday, July 11, 2005
The weekend.
I often question the relationship that I have with E, probably due to how it originated. E started working at a place where I was doing some temp work where the people we worked with were a fairly close knit group with a few exceptions. I think E and I hit it off pretty well, and to be honest, I might have fancied her just a little bit. She left after a relatively short time (a few months) to take up a permanent job elsewhere in the country. I still kept in touch though, but it was quite hard beginning a friendship like that by swapping the odd email every so often. It's pretty much taken us five years to get to a point where, if we'd been in contact in person fairly regularly, we'd have been after a few months.
Now we're fairly close, though I am still aware that it is quite often me who initiates the contact and even those visits I make to see her are done at my suggestion, though we always end up having a blast.
I did have a bit of a crisis of conscience recently where I suspected that I really fancied E (and it's easy to see why because she does have a lot of traits that I would like to see in any potential girlfriend) but obviously with her being a (platonic) friend, I really didn't want to ruin anything by doing something stupid. I don't know if it was a phase I went through or what, but this weekend went by without a flicker of anything untoward going through my brain. Well, about E, plenty of stuff went through my brain about various young ladies who wandered through the pub as E asked me to pick out those I considered attractive. I think she has some plan about matchmaking. That'd be interesting. It didn't take too long before E announced that she had my type nailed down. "Yes", I wittily replied. "You're going to ask Jessica Alba to date me?"
To be fair though, when it comes to looks, I do think I have a distinct preference (rather than a 'type') although I am also quite picky.
That developed into a bit of introspective analysis there which wasn't meant to happen. Suffice to say, the weekend was fantastic, my liver is complaining of over-work and the sun is shining outside. I'm off to do a spot of reading in the garden and enjoy my day off work.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
This weekend...
Monday, July 04, 2005
V... again.
I don't like Mondays...
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Wandering mind...
I must investigate and see whether the paperwork for my gym membership has gone through. I'm tied up this week, but could make a start when I return to work after my few days off.
"Sun" Day
To do...
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Friday, July 01, 2005
Thursday, June 30, 2005
I'm bored.
Some work stuff.
Started a new project today and it's already gone to the dogs. We've got two weeks to complete the project and I'm off work for three days next week plus my co-worker has taken a week off. Things are going to get messy!
It's E's birthday today, so 'Happy Birthday, E'. See ya next week :D
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
V2
Monday, June 27, 2005
Sunday, June 26, 2005
The wonders of alcohol.
I still wonder what might have been. But only when I have the best part of a bottle of Gin in me... Like now ;)
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Secret fun and games.
Friday, June 24, 2005
Heeeeeeellllllloooooooo!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Gah, hmmmm, ummm... etc.
I've booked my tickets to go and see E. That weekend is going to be a mixed bag. I've stated before that I've been having less than platonic thoughts about E. It's been over six months since I've last seen E (though we've emailled and called each other), so I have no idea if this is going to get weird. Weird from my point of view, obviously. I doubt E has any inkling of what's going on in my head (or my pants).
Oh, and I finally managed to hand in my gym forms at work. Sometime over the next two or three weeks, my gym membership will get activated and I can begin to lose some of my tum. I'm not particualrly interested in losing weight per se, but more about toning my tum so that I can fit into the nice clothes I bought myself at the end of last year (and haven't been able to fit into since!)
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Fun!
This time I was invited, but mainly because my friend was invited along at the request of *gasp* a girl! We'd both met this girl before - a few months back, and my friend, as they say, was quite taken with her. It appears that the feeling was mutual, as it was she who asked for my friend to be invited. However, for reasons still unknown, she left early which meant that another girl ended up "becoming friendly" with my friend. Much hilarity ensued.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Me, the racist.
I am not sure if he was born in France*, or if he is of French blood, there I think he considers himself to be French rather than English though.
Anyway, he accused me of exaggerating today, and I called him on this. I asked him if 'exaggerating' was French for lying. Rather than answer the question, he then starts making 'racist' accusations. Personally, I was questioning whether he was calling me a liar and trying to hide it, his nationality doesn't come into it. Fucking idiot.
*Nationality changed to protect identity.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Stupid/selfish people and debating.
Strangely, as time has gone on, a lot of people, while not agreeing with my methods, are at least coming around to my way of thinking. Of course, I have to point that out to them, much to my own amusement. However, there's one guy whom I believe to be abusing the position of trust that a website owner has bestowed upon him. We usually end up in various debates about this particular website. His typical reaction to any perceived criticism of him or his "friends" is complete denial, usually followed by a "you're wrong" or "that's deliberately mis-representing the truth". At first, I thought it was me, but several other people have also backed me up in my version of events and a few people have told me in private that they've suffered similar fates when having a discussion with this person.
Anyway, he continually challenges any suggestions to change his working practices despite the fact the website in question is really going to the dogs. He refuses to support other people's endeavours to help the site and, thus far, has yet to offer any ideas of his own on how to accomplish this goal. His basic philosophy toward the site is to reap the rewards of his position, but bury his head in the sand at the state of the site.
Every time I think of this, the phrase "laissez-faire" springs to mind from my old GCSE Economics class. I think it translates roughly as "leave to do" or similar. What it actually means that you use a system whereby if you leave everything alone, you hope that it will all work out in the end. This seems to be exactly the attitude of this person, which is frustrating when you consider the amount of work being put in by many other people, only for this one idiot to be spoiling it for the rest of us, and yet the web site owner doesn't listen...
Monday, June 06, 2005
Airline fares.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Are you listening?
Tonight showed pretty much what I'm capable of (he says, his ego rapidly inflating...) An acquaintance, whom I've only started speaking to on MSN recently, was/is having a spot of bf trouble. She's no reason to trust me - we barely know each other having had less than a dozen MSN chats over a month, but she still managed to open up tonight (although, in all honestly, she didn't open up fully).
As usual, the other party then gets all guilty like, apologising and telling me that i must surely be bored. However, the fact of the matter is, I like listening.
No imagination = no title.
I appreciate that the entries probably aren't particularly exciting for the most part, and as much as I would like post details of the time I snorted coke off of Jessica Alba's naked body or thousands of no-strings one night stands, they're just not me. Not that I would want to snort coke off Jessica's naked body or fuck thousands of women - I would (in theory at least).
I think, mainly, that the blog is under-performing due to my lack of social life at the moment. A lot of my friends left and moved away, others got married and settled down with mortgages, kids and the like. That left me, a single bloke, trying to summon people to go pubbing etc. with. I might try and get a few of the people in work more interested in doing social stuff, but they're tied up in relationships, too. So, what I need is a social life, or maybe a girlfriend. Hell... even a fuck buddy so that we can go to the pub and then shag (or go to the cinema, then shag... or shag, then shag... anything, then shag!) Anything to get me out of the house! Heh.
One more thing to ponder: in one of my more time consuming online ventures, I seem to have a reputation of being a no nonsense, tell it like it is kind of person. However, for some reason, I also seem to have attracted a female fan base, most of whom have become fans despite knowing next to nothing about me. If only I could translate that kind of action down at the pub!
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Bored, bored, bored, bored, bored, bored, bored.
Reading back over it, it sounds like a really productive day, and it probably is. However, what the above paragraph doesn't say is that I didn't start and complete these tasks one after the other - I spent five minutes doing one before moving onto the other etc. I'm surprised I actually accomplished so much given this state of mind.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Ego wanking.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
AWOL.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Travelling.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Sigh.
I wouldn't mind seeing NZ again – especially the South Island that I never got a real good chance to see before, plus there is the thought of not seeing E for ages. We do see each other a couple of times a year, which is great, but if she's gone for a couple of years, I'd miss her terribly.
Friday, May 13, 2005
To perv or not to perv... that is the question.
My first two balls down the lane knocked down a grand total of 1 pin, much to the amusement of my co-workers who thought I was being far too arrogant about my skills. Of course, following that up with two strikes, a spare and a 7/10 split for another spare soon wiped the smiles from their faces and I resumed being my normal arrogant self.
Predictably, once our one and only female co-worker had left, the conversation turned to company totty. I work in IT, so you can imagine that the male/female ratio is heavily stacked in favour of the males (sadly). However, there is one girl who sits close to my desk and is simply stunning and has a very lickable body, too. It came to light last night that she's not the 21 year old I thought she was, but is actually 27 or 28. Pity her department is moving soon – perving opportunities are going to go waaaay down. I might have to do some work. Anyway, from previous 'conversations' with UHSW, thinking about sex at work is simply far too frustrating to be enjoyable.
All in all, it was a great night out. I'm now at home with a raging hangover, but the sun is shining, it's a warm day and more importantly, it's a Friday!
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Rant about a fucktard.
Around Xmas, he decided that he'd got too much other stuff on and would let USHW admin the site until such time as he could return. Recently, his absence was noticed and commented on, and before you know it, the toys are being chucked well and truly out of the pram.
Apparently, TBM is upset that he's being criticised, despite the fact that the environment in which this messageboard operates, is rife with criticism and the like. People have offered to take the site off his hands if he's that pissed off, but I'm guessing that the recent perceived criticism will simply just make TBM decide to shut down the site. TBM, if you hadn't already guessed, is one of the most immature people I've ever met.
So now, all of a sudden, TBM is claiming that he isn't the site owner anymore, despite still owning the rights to the URL and the hosting package (and claiming so in various messages). I've no idea why he would stupidly make such a comment in public, especially when the only other person it could be, USHW, would probably call him on it in public, too.
It's my personal feeling that he's been looking for an excuse to close the site down for some time. I do know he's not particularly willing to give the site away for free (the stupid fucker took out a two year hosting deal and there's still a year left), but I also know that he wasn't public, until a few days ago, about not being willing to come back to the site as owner/admin.
What TBM doesn't really realise is that the people now involved with the board will be majorly pissed if he suddenly pulls the plug and that the popularity that he so craves will evaporate right before his eyes when the truth of what he's actually done for that site is made public. I, for one, will make sure people realise what a glory hunter he is.
Final words on this: I bet he closes the site down, and quite soon. I hope I'm wrong and that USHW can talk him round, but I'm not feeling any positive mental attitude (PMA) towards this at this time.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Contact (Part 2 - a specific person).
We've had more than one argument about his lack of contact. I'd spent the best part of six months emailing a Hotmail account of his, only to find he'd never checked the fucking thing. Text messages go ignored and he refuses to sign up to stuff like Skype or MSN that would make it easier for a lot of his friends to stay in contact.
A lot of people are now coming to the end of their tether with him for these reasons, and if he doesn't pull his socks up soon, he's going to find himself without friends. His long-suffering girlfriend, E2, is well aware of what's happening, but he simply refuses to listen.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Best laid plans..,
I also have a trip to Birmingham due sometime in September or October to see F and perhaps a trip to Bristol in June or July. I might not get away on a summer holiday (but I don't really have the desire for that), but a few long weekends with friends are always welcome.
I've done enough procrastinating, so I'm gonna contact my brother-in-law later to see if we can't start getting fitter this week, preferably tomorrow.
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Thank you.
(sigh)
Don't ask me what 'something to happen' is, because I don't know, but you don't simply start reading through someone's chat logs for entertainment. It's almost like reading through someone's diary, or blog. You will probably find something there you don't like.
This all sounds like bad news, and to a certain extent, it is. Not for me – OH only knows me as a name on the internet and chat logs, so I really can't see any fallout for me on this. It could potentially be bad news for USHW though, coming at a time when she is already unhappy. The irony of the situation is that, before the gathering, 'fallout' was something we'd discussed. I've brought it up before in one of my previous posts.
The optimist in me thinks that it could be turned into a good thing by USHW though. If there was ever a good time to get stuff off her chest regarding the past year or so, then it's right now. She has been reticent about coming clean to OH about all sorts of things because she feared it would hurt him, despite the fact it was doing her damage, too. So, she's now in a situation where she can sit down and clear the air with OH and see about moving forward. I hope she does, and I hope OH sees the opportunity... she deserves it.
I'd assume that, at least for the next few weeks, USHW will not be online much until things are clear(er). She knows she can email me at any time though. I'm gonna stay off MSN chats with her for a while to give her and OH a chance.
On a selfish note, my ego is sad because I’d been hoping to chat with her about something another female at the gathering was supposed to have said about me. That'll simply have to wait...
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Keep on running...
I'll have to speak to him later this evening to organise something. Motivation has always been a major factor in my lack of exercise. It's not something I can do alone. By all means ask me to go and play football or basketball. I've no issues with that, but try and get me to do something on my own (running, gym etc.) and you're in deep trouble.
Let's see how this goes...
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
What next?
I finally met USHW, too. There was bed sharing, but no fluid swapping. All moral codes remain intact, which was never in any doubt, really. She's a lot quieter and a lot more timid then I was expecting, despite repeated warnings from her that that was the case.
Now what? I've sort of been focussed on this one event, so now that's over what?
I am meant to be heading to Birmingham in September, so there is that to look forward to, but it seems an awful waste of a summer to be looking passed that to the early Autumn. Probably best to put on the old thinking cap.
Monday, April 18, 2005
Booze!
only a little effort is required
My close friends know my postal address; they know any one of my many email address, my MSN name, ICQ number, Skype username, YAHOO messenger account etc.
How come that very few of them actually uses them (those that I don't see regularly, that is)? It's not that they don't know that I value personal contact. I have been more than vocal in my desire that my friends stay in contact more. It's not as if they don't see the consequences of not doing so as I've distanced myself from people who simply don't make the effort.
An ex-girlfriend of mine, FA2, repeatedly complains that I am no longer in contact with her, despite the fact that out of all my friends, she's the one who probably knows best that not staying in contact is guaranteed to piss me off. "I haven't heard from you in ages!" was an email I once received from her (her first in months), despite the fact I'd been emailing, on average, every fortnight when she was out of the country.
As I've said before, I was in the States recently and met a lovely girl, V. We seemed to hit it off really well, and by the time it was time for me to return home we had, I thought, the beginnings of a friendship. What have I heard since then? Fuck all. I've sent "proper" mail, SMS messages and if I could make out her handwriting, I'd send an email too.
Out of them all, only MA2 and QC2 actually send stuff out of the blue asking how I am. It's not a lot – just a few lines in an email, but it means something to me and more often than not, ends up in arranging to visit them or meeting up for a drink.
I don't understand why more people don't make the effort.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Never, ever volunteer.
What a weekend. Not that I did anything terribly exciting at all, but I'm still ready to go to bed and I'm completely exhausted. For the past few weeks, I've been trying to fix a relative's PC. It's been a struggle since day one, to be honest. First of all, trying to find the actual error which was causing the PC to reset itself about 90% of the way into booting up took ages and turned out to be faulty RAM (or at least incorrectly seated RAM). That took about 10 days. So off it trundled to relative HQ, only to be returned immediately. "It's still broken" cried the bastards.
Was it fuck! So I fiddled with it a bit more – updated the BIOS, fragmented the hard drive and generally made sure it was running as well as it could (and that's not to say it's great – P3 450Mhz. 256MB Ram and Windows XP are not a good combo).
I sent it back to them in the best health it's been in since they bought it. But, oh no, that's not fucking good enough, is it? "The modem doesn't work!" they moaned "Reinstall Windows for us... and we want new anti-virus software, too!"
Can't these people just reinstall the fucking drivers?
Now... that was all two weeks ago. It's taken me two fucking weeks to reinstall Windows XP. I have no idea why the PC didn't like it (there were about half a dozen different reasons I could find why, but can't narrow it down any more than that). Ordinarily, it's a 2 hour job at the most, but two fucking weeks? Give me a break!
It was at that point that I gave up, sent an SMS to my cousin pronouncing the PC to be dead. It is an ex-PC. No, it's not fucking sleeping, it's dead. Here's something for free - if they're looking a new PC built, they can fuck off and look elsewhere...
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Just sit back, close your eyes and tell me everything... You have one hour.
I have a lot of female friends. Is there a reason for this? Perhaps. I've no idea though. However, I seem to just click easier with females than males (though don't get me wrong – my oldest friends are guys I've known for nearly 30 years now). That's hardly a big thing either. Where everything does seem to fall down is that, in a few cases (too many), I will end up feeling things for my female chums that are not at all sensible.
What to post?
This one might need a bit of pondering first.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
woohoo
Groove on.
Interesting side point about that night… At the start of "Bad", Bono says "Michael Jackson, guilty before you've been given a chance. We don't think you're bad".
And 11 years on, I wonder if Bono still thinks that?
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Note to self...
Countdown.
That's disappointing in many ways. I'd love to meet her and that's primarily what I'm looking forward to if she can make it, but we're due to be sharing a room (and a bed), and to be honest, I was kinda looking forward to that, too. Get your minds out of the gutter! There won't be any sex (at least not between USHW and myself) but it is pleasant to share a bed with a female, even a platonic friend. That's not to say that if another young filly were to offer that I'd say "no". I'm a single bloke as much in need of a fuck as the next one. I did, at one point, have a totty list, but most of the people on the list were unrealistic for various reasons and the others won't be showing.
Ah well… Looks like it's more porn for me then.
Professional life.
Monday, April 11, 2005
What the fuck?
It's not a joke.
http://www.christianshirts.net/index.php
Type.
I like to think that mine's brunettes, but in all honesty, I've fucked all types of girls - blondes, brunettes, redheads, thin, athletic, sturdy, tall, medium, short etc.
My friend, F, likes nerds for reasons known only to herself.
I can go into lots more detail, but suffice to say that Jessica Alba (there's a picture of her around here somewhere) pretty much resembles my ideal woman. I think I've been lucky, too. Two ex-lovers (what a crap phrase that is) of mine have had those characteristics, too. Don't get me wrong - I'm not saying that I've shagged two Jess Alba lookalikes - far from it! But they were both brunette, dark eyes and curvy in the right places without being too big or too thin.
So why this post? Ummm... dunno, really. I don't suppose anyone knows a single Jess Alba-alike in her early to mid thirties?
No more Microsoft bollocks.
Hopefully.
Microsoft Bollocks.
You really should use a better browser like Opera or Firefox, you know!
(Yes, I am aware it's my fault for not resizing the Jessica/Catherine pictures correctly, but that still doesn't mean you should be using IE.)
The good ol' U S of A.
It's mainly food related, though.
Fast food:
Chipotle
Taco Bell
Wendy's
Starbucks (yes, I know we have that in the UK, but I liked the American prices)
A decent steak
American cocktails
Things I don't miss at all:
American beer. It is vile.
Homeland security.
Maps galore! (None relevant to me, but still fun).
http://maps.google.com/
and
http://terraserver.microsoft.com/default.aspx
Tremendous fun!
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Not looking good.
I've done meets like this before, but where this one is different in that there's not much motivation for me to show up apart from one thing, and that's the chance to meet USHW. Until now, we've only spoken via IM and email. There are other people who will be in attendance that I'd like to see again, but I also like to meet new people, and the "quality" (for want of a better word) of new people at this meet is lacking.
The problem is that USHW has problems of her own, and it's looking increasingly likely as if she won't be able to make it to this gathering, despite the fact she's put a lot of work into organising it. It would be a shame if she didn't get to the meeting as I believe she really needs to spend some time on her own away from the stresses that she's currently facing (and would make her frustrations at the organising worthwhile). A few days spent on the lash would be an ideal tonic - at least, that's what I think.
We can only see what happens, I suppose. I'm not feeling particularly positive right now though.
Blogger templates.
What if...
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Confession.
The thought of it makes me giggle.
Microsoft MSN Messenger.
But why oh why do fucktards insist on ignoring my status messages?
Setting myself as "Away" or "Busy" isn't done for the good of my health, you know!
Grrr...
More pondering.
"Shagging married people: who is ultimately responsible for what happens? The married person, seeing as are the person in the relationship? Are they ultimately responsible or does the external party also have some sort of moral obligation to behave themselves, too?"
As a single male, I have to say that I have slept with a married woman, once. She did all the chasing, and I was in the mood, so I went along with it without a thought. The next day, I got thinking though. From a personal point of view, I had no issues with it. We both had a good time (at least I know one of us did, and I hope the other did, too), but I've no idea if there was fallout from what happened. Did MW go home and confess all? Did she say nothing? Herein lies the question.
It might happen again. I'm not going to chase anyone who's married (or even those in long term relationships), but that's not to say if someone in one of these were to offer that I'd say "no". I might, of course. Ideally, I'd need to have some sort of idea about whether there'd be fallout as a consequence. If so, then you wouldn't see me for dust. That'd still ring true if I wasn't going to be involved. If there was no fallout on the cards though, then who knows? It's the fallout that's the key here, I think.
Of course, in an entirely hypocritical twist, I wouldn't want my other half to go off shagging around.
Friday, April 08, 2005
Goal setting.
So, in a vague attempt to start this good habit off again, here's another list:
- Join that local gym that I've been planning to for a while (and use it).
- Be more careful with my diet (currently it's "eat what you like").
- Try and save some money.
- Start looking long term for permanent housing solutions - investigate mortgages and house prices.
- Ummm...
I think that's enough for now. I might update this as and when I accomplish these goals and need to think of other stuff to add to it.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Titles. Fucking titles.
The blog title, for those of you who are interested, is a line from an episode of the excellent Futurama spoken by Bender. it's not as if it's some profound statement that cunningly reflects my personality.
I'm not sure where this is going to go, really. If you eventually want to blame someone, then hunt out USHW for hinting/nagging etc. for me to set up my own blog. (I did have another one, but it sank before it got off the ground because I stupidly give the URL to a friend, despite my intention of keeping it private and being able to use it to clear my head from time to time.)
For USHW: I'm not going to promise that I post in this regularly or that I will bare my soul. It should stand a better chance than my last one though, so it might contain something of note at some point.
Things that make you go "hmmmm".
I mean to post this yesterday, but I was having a lazy day and watching Star Wars, so wasn't thinking about blogging. The night out on F...
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Following on from this post I've got my hands on this year's first shortlist for the High Street Honeys award. How will the ladies ...
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Today, I decided that it's been far too long since I've seen QC2, so I sent a text message in the hope that she'll reply soon. E...