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I've always claimed that I'm not a boobs guy or an ass guy or a specific body part guy, and that's true. But I have to say that boobs have been on my mind a lot over the past few days. That picture of Anna Kendrick that I posted yesterday is really doing it for me. When considering my past, FBS and CAB have been on my mind a lot, too, and they were blessed in the chest department.

Refresh.

The internet dick crossed my mind briefly when I went to bed last night, but only briefly. I think my assumption yesterday that he'd already blocked me and so didn't see my last message where I'd called out his hypocrisy. (I am am little disappointed that the other moderator didn't reach out - I think we had decent rapport and worked well together.)

That, I think, translated into a very good night's sleep. I feel great this morning. 

Palate cleanser.

To cheer me up from yesterday's "drama" (which I think had a bigger effect than you might expect because the guy's attitude and behaviour reminds me of an old boss I had about 10 years ago), here are some attractive women.

From the top: Anna Kendrick, Alison Brie, Frankie Bridge, Victoria Justice, Anne Hathaway and finally Gemma Atkinson.

You're still outta here.

I didn't sleep at all last night. That's the second time this week it's happened. However, while I've no idea why Tuesday night was sleepless, last night's was all about the internet dick.

My smart watch tells me I got 5.5 hours of sleep, but it really didn't feel like that. I got half of that if I was lucky. It also reported high heart rate (the anxiety) and high temperature.

Surprisingly, the internet dick never replied to my last message despite his history and personality needing to have the last word. Will he reply today (he's based in the USA so there are time differences to consider)? I don't know, but my plan is delete the message unread if I can. I've said my piece. Though I am now wondering if I was already blocked after he had the last word and my most recent message hasn't been delivered.

You're outta here!

I was given a demotion earlier today. It's nothing serious, and nothing professional. I was a moderator on a large social media site for a specific topic and the so-called "lead moderator" removed for me lack of respect.

I'm not going to lie, I don't respect him. Ever known a person who gets a little inkling of power and lets it get to their head? Yeah, that was this guy. I thought I was hiding my contempt quite well, but looking back, clearly not. Anyhoo... he was lead moderator by the sake of a random algorithm or luck of the draw, not through any actual knowledge, merit or tenure.

But he used that title and the few additional powers that granted him, to decide debates etc. Disagree with him about the way forward? He'd do it anyway under the guise of being "lead moderator". Make a decision he didn't like? He'd reverse it because he was the "lead moderator".

One of those people who always needs to have the final word? Yeah. 

He also hates feeling like he's been outdone. Which is why I think he's eventually cracked and removed me. You know the kind of person who replies to a message, ponders on it for ages, then replies again later in a longer, more ranty way? Yeah, he's one of those. So when he started questioning my actions in a very snidey, disingenuous way, he got his energy right back at him.

"You've done this thing that I've done loads, but I don't like your attitude, so I'm removing you" 

But he didn't say that first. He removed me without ever addressing any concerns that he had that apparently go back months. Yup, it's been simmering for months.

The thing that I did was on Monday (I turned off a small feature in our community that barely anyone uses), but he's been stewing on this all week. You could sense it.

But for some reason, despite the fact I don't like the guy, despite the fact I was probably going to quit anyway and despite the fact it's only online rubbish, it's actually made me quite anxious. I don't do confrontation well, even something as inconsequential and impersonal as an internet argument.

I have replied to him, not to ask to be a moderator again but to point out his hypocrisy. I expect a reply, probably with some further accusations (his original one was that I am not a team player) and then be blocked... because he always has to have the last word.

The reality is, I think, he views me as a challenger to his position even though there's literally nothing I can do about it. I don't even want that position. It's like he took every disagreement personally as a direct challenge. You can't deal with people like that.

Oh dear.

For the first time in ages, probably since before Covid, D was in contact about a Superbowl party at his house. Party is probably too strong a word for it - a gathering of a few people with lots of snacks and some beers.

Ordinarily, I'd be all over that, even if Opinionated Guy is going to be there. But I'm doing KfW2 a favour which means I need to be in the house at the weekend. 

yawn

I dropped off to sleep quite quickly last evening, but woke after about an hour. It was after 5 AM when I finally dropped off to sleep. Originally, I was meant to be awake by 7:15 AM for an office day, but fuck that. I cancelled my alarm and dropped off to sleep for an extra hour.

It was after 9AM by the time I got into work - a full hour later than usual.

I had a massive headache due to lack of sleep, so I decided to cut my losses and leave at lunch. My boss had other plans, asking me for several chores. It actually helped - focusing on some problems distracted me from the slow passing of time and my headache.

But I'm glad I'm back home now. It should mean an earlier finish on Friday though.

Again.

KfW2 did call in today with her kids. I'm doing her a favour while she's off on holiday for half term, so she wanted to have a chat with me about some stuff. It was only a flying visit, but it was great to see her. I've not seen her since last September, I think.

She was halfway through explaining some stuff to me when she paused.

"Have you lost weight?"

She knows this. We chatted about it when I was at her place in September. I might have blogged about it at the time because I recall being pretty disappointed that I had to tell her rather than her notice by herself.

Regardless, it was great seeing her again, and there were hugs. I love hugs. 

Long time...

A surprise phone call from KfW2. I think she's going to call in over the weekend. I can't remember the last time I actually saw her, so I'm hoping that she finds the time (she's not 100% certain she can).

 And I guess that means I have to go shopping tomorrow morning. 

Rock and roll

I was bemoaning my lack of socialising to a co-worker in the office yesterday. We had been talking about the monthly work event that's happening this evening.

So it was surprisingly, in a good way, when my brother-in-law sent a message this morning enquiring about heading out tomorrow night to see a band. I'd suggested it ages ago, but I'd completely forgotten about it.

I was initially torn. My football team is playing tomorrow evening and the match is being televised, so I had kinda already planned my Saturday night. But as I said, I've been complaining about a lack of socialising, so I agreed to go.

*gasp*

I'm not often rendered speechless by the women I see on Tinder. There are some gorgeous women there, but pictures alone rarely do things for me. I like to see women move, smile, interact with others. That makes a LOT of difference.

I struggle to recall the last woman that I genuinely wanted to match and meet. Pre-Covid maybe?

Until tonight. Someone who looks like a combination of Jennifer Lawrence and Olivia Munn. 

I mean, for all I know she's a horrible person, but based on looks alone... wowzer.