Blast from the past.

Yesterday, Facebook reminded me of a night I was out with DSC, many years ago, to celebrate her birthday. It wasn't anywhere I was used to going, in fact it was out of town, closer to where DSC lived. It was me and about half a dozen of her (female) friends, though not CF. I think that friendship had already gone by that stage.

But the weird thing that I remembered, and I'm not sure if I ever blogged about it was that I was convinced that DSC wanted to push boundaries that night. I can't remember the details, but there was definitely a tone to some things she said... and her friends were making comments, too.

I was never physically attracted to DSC, though she did ask me out and I told her I just saw her as a friend. And if I recall correctly, she was dating her on-again-off-again boyfriend at this time anyway, so any attraction would have been moot.

And I'm also pretty sure that I'd been very vocal about wanting to bed CF, too.

More or less "girls, girls, girls"?

I put together a rather substantial post last night regarding my previous post and it got lost when my PC suddenly installed updates without warning. Ho hum.

Off the back of my previous post, I was reminded of a statement I read (probably on the online forum of which I am a member) where someone said (and I paraphrase here):

"If you are good friends with a woman who has single friends and she's never tried to set you up with any of them, then there's something wrong".

While I'm not going to get into whether or not this person is actually right or wrong, it did cause me to think. I've always had a lot of female friends and as far as I can remember I can count on the fingers of one hand how many times one of my female friends actually tried to set me up (and KfW2's recent offer and GB with CB since the turn of the year don't count).

• I got AM a summer job at my place when she was at uni. She met a cute girl there who apparently was quite into me. AM didn't tell me until after their contracts ended, we were on our way home and I never saw her again.
• QC1 made a half-assed attempt to get me to go on a blind date. "She was perfect for me" she said, but yet wouldn't entertain just bringing her out socially. It HAD to be a blind date.
• E had hoped that I'd get it on with her friend R3 and made at least one clumsy effort to get us together. R3 admitted later that, at the same time, she had hoped that E and I would get together because we were natural together, but I don't recall any actual effort when I was present. Neither happened.
• KfW once tried to get me to get off with her friend when we were in the bar. Her friend was having the same conversation with me when KfW was at the bar.
• DSC did ask CF if she'd fuck me one night we were all out and CF was horny. Sadly, she didn't want to.

And, well, that's it. Five times over the course of twenty odd years of being seriously interested in girls. I don't know if I should be disappointed or if there were more discussions that went on behind the scenes that I am unaware of. Given that I haven't ever scored with a friend of a female friend (RB doesn't count as I only knew MF long after RB had gone away), I'm probably going to assume that these conversations never happened.

Dating site dilemma.

I spent a pleasant few hours in the pub last night with DSC. To be honest, I wasn't looking forward to it. I've been feeling a bit lethargic recently and last night sort of caught up with me. Anyway, we adjourned to my local pub and spent a good few hours just chatting... about her and her boyfriend, about CF and her ongoing single status and various other pieces. DSC wanted to talk about my own single status and did suggest that I try dating sites again, but I don't know if I want to put myself through that again. The lack of success of any kind last year really caused me to doubt myself, and that's something I've never done before. However, DSC's point was valid - how else do we meet new people these days?

So, against my better judgement, I have been semi-considering the dating site angle again, but I keep changing my mind, then changing it back a few minutes later. Do I have other options? I really don't know.

Party season plans.

Something I once said to USHW and have recently said to DSC is that I hate being single at this time of year. It was true when I said it to USHW a few years ago and it's still true now. This year, though, the feeling is not as bad. I have quite a few things to look forward to. I recently set in motion a plan to have a night out with my friends from work - KfW, MF, MfW, JB etc.

I also have an official work night out and another with ex-collegaues from another company (including FBS and D amongst others). I've also suggested meeting up with DSC and possibly CF as well.

Also, before Xmas, I'm expecting to meet up with possibly BW and definitely M (possibly with M's girlfriend) and juggle FP too.

Between Xmas and New Year, I'm hoping to meet up with AM and QC1 and the rest of that group and hopefully, someone will have a party on NYE to end it all off. to be honest, that's the night I'm most concerned about. I really don't want to be sat in on NYE. I don't think it's likely, but the concern is there.

That should keep me busy outside of the usual family stuff that goes on and keep my mind off the other stuff.

Weird vibes

I was out last night wih CF, DSC and her boyfriend for CF's birthday. It was a weird night. There was only the four of us. There were some issues with CF and her friends, but I've no idea what they were... maybe DSC will provide some further information later today. In the end, rather than being a rowdy, fun evening, it was more restrained with CF being in a weird mood all evening.

The only other point worth mentioning is that M was in the same bar with his girlfriend and a few other people. I seem to remember a couple of cute ladies, too, but as I was out with CF and DSC, I really couldn't give them the time to get to know them better, even though one of them was really quite cute. I popped across for a brief chat, but nothing more than five minutes, sadly.

I had promised DSC, after a bit of lecturing, that I would try and at least go looking for potential dates this weekend, but Friday was a washout (and a work night out, so looking wasn't really an option) and CF's own less-than-happy mood meant that I didn't get to go looking.

R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

After last week's incident with DSC and her unwarranted inclusion of her boyfriend out on a night out, she let slip tonight that his opinion of me might be as low as mine is of him - at least in terms of respect. I did try and get DSC to tell me why, but she refused to elaborate. That's going to make CF's birthday next week a bit interesting, though I'm not the sort to pick fights and as long as CF's fuck buddy isn't about, I'll no doubt make some effort in seeing if she's interested in, well, something.

I'm still a little confused as to why I'm invited out. CF and I have hit it off (platonically at least), but we've only met a few times. I barely invited DSC out to my birthday and we've become quite close in the ten months or so that we've known each other.

What do you want?

After more text-teasing DSC about CF or specifically, hooking up with CF, I got a text message through yesterday:

"I sense a bit of frustration... LOL"

Which is true. I am incredibly frustrated and the incident with NM recently has really not helped matters... so close, but so far. I replied:

"Yes, that's fair to say. NM hasn't helped."

"I can imagine. So are you looking for a shag, fun dating or to meet someone?"

Interesting question from DSC.

"All of the above? I like dating. It's fun. If I can get a few dates and the odd shag along the way of meeting someone, I'll be happy"

"LOL. You'll be lucky"

Hmmm... not exactly what I wanted to hear, but is it really so unlikely or unrealistic?

I fucking hate when this happens - UPDATE

Well, tonight's no longer happening. The cute friend has (unsurprisingly) cried off, giving me a Get Out of Jail Free card to play, which I did. If DSC comes online, then I'll happily explain why I've done this. I've just given the cute friend all the details. I think she disagrees with me, at least with my point of view that DSC's boyfriend is a cock. I stand by it though.

I am annoyed, but less so given that the cute friend wasn't going to be there. And it's about time the cute friend got her own tag, so it's CF from now on.