Quick Digest

I did call KfW2 at lunch and we spent 20 mins or so, chatting. I think that's the the first time we've spoken since I was at her house about 2 months ago. Our calls and texts are getting more infrequent, and she doesn't really interact on social media any more (not that I am massively active on Facebook). I should follow up over the weekend see about getting her out properly for food and drinks.

I also did get the gardening done. Well, about 80% of it. I have some tidying up to do, but the equipment I need to do it is at my Dad's house. I'm meant to be heading over there tomorrow, so I could get the work done by the end of the weekend.

FBS has already replied to D's text message saying she's unavailable on the day that D's suggested for drinks, but she's not offered up any alternatives.

And finally, thanks to some guy in work who's been a massive PITA over the past few weeks, I have a work call to attend tomorrow morning at 4AM. FFS. These use to be fairly regular when I was in the same team as Stalky Guy, but in my current team, these are almost unheard of. 

A rare mini digest

A bit of a digest today. Facebook has informed me that CH is moving house. I've not spoken to her in years, so I've no idea where she's going to. I assume she's up-sizing as she has three growing kids. 

I've been thinking about CH quite a bit over the past few weeks, though I couldn't explain why she's been on my mind so much. Subconsciously, it might be because it's around this time of year where it's her birthday, we had a night out where she was extremely tactile and also sent a series of sweet messages telling me how much she valued my friendship and another night where she sent a series of messages that gave off a vibe of something unknown. And there all would have been flagged as Facebook memories or notifications.

Additionally, it's CC's birthday today. I've messaged her about maybe going out for dinner. She's agreed, and I've left it up to her to decide on where she wants to go.

Also, work has dropped me a surprise Amazon voucher, so I'm just browsing Amazon to see if I can treat myself to something shiny and new.

Jumble

There are a lot of things happening, right now, that I could do without. Work things, personal things... things. I'm not going to get into them in detail on this blog at the moment. I may revisit them with posts in the future, but I haven't really decided yet.

But I'm stressed. I'm trying to get these things settled in my head but I often struggle when trying to do this with more than one thing at a time. It's at times like this that I feel lonely and the lack of a significant other also weighs on me. But it's also a reminder that I've not had some alone time with KfW2 in years, barring a few quick lunches when we're treating each other for our respective birthdays. It's over four years since I had a night out with KfW2 and longer than that since it wasn't birthday-related.

Similarly with GM, someone else I can talk to, I saw him for the first time in a year and a half at the weekend. Despite having similar outlooks on life, I've often found it hard to pin him down for a chat, though he always claims to enjoy it when we do.

I've also been reading a blog - two friends date each other for forty days. It's years old by this stage (2013), and I'm only halfway through it, so have no idea how it ends, but it reminded me of this post. You know, that stage where you're finding out about this new person in your life and it's exciting and fun and nervy all at the same time. That's only added to the loneliness.

And I'd love to get some work done to my house. I have a list of tasks that would add value to the house, but also make the house more pleasant: new lighting in the hall and stairs, a new kitchen plus a few other things. I can't afford to do them all at once, but I also can't seem to get anyone out to give me a quote for the work, never mind getting several people out so I can choose a quote. While it might not seem obvious, the loneliness aspect plays a part here too: it would be nice to have someone to bounce ideas off about the improvements I want to do. As it is, I have some ideas that may be brilliant or may be outrageous. I simply don't know.

Still, a potential walk with Nerdy Girl on Wednesday and a group meeting with FC, Mrs FC, S and GM at the weekend. It's nice to have something to look forward to, despite the stress and the feeling of being over-whelmed.

Mini Digest

For the first time this year, the sun is out and it's warm. The grass in my back garden is cut and if I had any garden furniture, I'd be sat out with a beer and a book.

I messaged KfW2 a few days ago to start the conversation about our day/night out, but she's not really addressed the subject.

And as a surprise, D called in to see me this morning, just as I was setting up the lawnmower. We chatted for an hour or so over coffee, before he went on his way. He had tried to get FBS out, but she had childcare problems.

Status Update: Week 23 (plus digest)

 I did weigh myself yesterday, but as I had slept in and needed to get online for work, I completely forgot about (b)logging the result. In fact, that reminds me, I've not actually recorded my weight in MyFitnessPal in probably over a month, if not longer.

The magic number this week is 228.4 lbs

Again, no real exercise to speak of, though I had cut out the takeaways.

CC called in last night to pick up some stuff I'd done for her as a favour. As if that wasn't enough, she also asked if she could store some things at my place while she moves house. I expected her to mention some boxes or small furniture pieces, but no. A massive sofa, a king-size bed and a double bed. Sorry CC, my house doesn't have that much spare room. Sigh.

MMBF popped up on Facebook today which prompted a trawl through her Facebook pics. She seems to have a great collection of figure-hugging dresses, which she wears really well. It's been ages since I've actually spoken to her in person, though.

Digest.

Another digest - it seems I don't have any big news to report, interesting things to ponder or general nonsense to spout that's enough for a post on its own.

KfW2 had an interview today for a job. She thinks it went poorly but she's said over many years that she's crap at interviews. She's very good at her job, personable and all kinds of other positives things that a good interviewer should spot. She doesn't think she'll get the job, but she's also quite negative about these things. I want her to get the job, but I don't want her to leave the team. I enjoy working with her and her company. And I hate change. She might only move twenty meters away, but it will feel like twenty miles. Plus it reinforces my own professional unhappiness.

I've had weird dreams as well this week, on top of not sleeping well. KfW2 has featured (non-sexual and weird), RB (sexual and frustrating), MF (non-sexual and uninteresting) plus a host of celebs as well. The KfW2 ones are reminiscent of the dream I described a few weeks ago, only without the sex - but the theme seemed the same - an ending of sorts, a change in dynamic between us.

I've taken a day off at the end of the week, plus it's a long weekend and, for the first time in ages, I'm going to the monthly work thing, so I am looking forward to the weekend. There's also a possibility of a night out with S, GM, SG etc. but that seems to be turning into a night at GM's for poker. I don't mind poker nights, to be honest, but I lose interest really quickly. After an hour, I'll be bored and looking to do something else. Let's see what happens there.

Meh.

I'm tired. I've developed a sore neck and a sore throat and had little sleep, so you get a digest, dear reader.

In a surprise twist, G sent a text on Saturday asking if I was free for coffee. I was, so we took ourselves off for an hour to chat, catch-up and generally just chill while G's kids ran riot at an indoor play park.

I had my meeting with my local people in work and I cannot take my concerns any further. The Head of HR has graciously offered to speak to the local people, but it won't change the low performance score and, more importantly, get me the pay rise I've been working towards all year.

KfW2 has an internal job interview on Thursday. I hope she gets it - she's nearly in as bad a state as me, mentally.

But the talk of pay rises, KfW2 moving to another team etc. has left me deflated.

I just need something good/fun/exciting/lucky to happen.

Posting for posting sake.

So, a brief digest...

I am still to meet some local people regarding the ongoing work stuff. FP, KfW2 and others have all advised on taking it further, which I'd already decided to do. I'm both stubborn and won't be bullied, so letting this go easily is not something that's going to happen. Plus, getting the score I think I deserve would mean a pay rise, albeit a small one.

However, going forward, the wanker boss issue should be less of an issue as he's no longer my boss. Result! Instead, we have  new boss, who's local to us. I believe the phrase is tough but fair, and that works for me. At least in the short term.

I still haven't gotten KfW2 out socially, and it's likely to be a while as well. I have an vague invite out for a night at mine, including KfW2. I say "vague" but really it's a solid invite, but everyone has to decide the date.

Getting KfW2 out socially is a big thing for me and it's really disappointing that it's something I can't make happen.

Small digest.

Another month, another "match" from DSC appearing in my Tinder companion app. I am slightly intrigued by why she keeps swiping on me on Tinder - is it simply to make contact or is/has she always been romantically interested? It's not going to make me get in touch with her though.

In other news, the long-discussed travel plans with FP have actually been finalised! We've managed to get all the ducks lined up in a row in terms of our respective time off and decent flight prices. It's all booked, paperwork is done and we'll be jetting off mid-September.

There's also a planned night out in about three weeks. So far, KfW2, FP, CC and S have all said they're going. FC, Sports Girl and GM have yet to reply. Even with those who have replied, it should be a good night.