I was probably pushing my luck a bit with the sleep thing: I've had weeks of great sleep. So I was pissed when I dropped off to sleep quickly last night, but woke less than an hour later because my (elderly) neighbour was watching TV until well after 1 AM.
I didn't get to sleep until after 3 AM.
And I'm feeling it today.
I was planning on going carpet shopping today. I pretty much know what I want, but I want to go down to the local carpet shop and see a few samples for myself. I'll also need to arrange a measurement and get an estimate for materials and fitting. I've measured it myself, so I have a ballpark idea of what I need, but in this instance, for stairs and landing, I'd like a proper second opinion.
But despite the fact that I have been sleeping really well over the past week or so, motivation is proving to be a big issue. Part of that is the weather: it's very showery today. That reduces my inclination to leave the house.
It's meant to be nicer tomorrow, so I'll maybe just do that instead. Make a morning of it: get out early, do what I need to do and then hit up a local cafe for coffee and perhaps even a late breakfast. I like the sound of that.
My sleep over the past few nights has been awful: waking numerous time a night and finding it difficult to get back to sleep. It got to the point where I was tired this morning with a massive headache. I decided that I'd take a last-minute day off and get some sleep. Or try to - I'm not big on sleeping during the day.
So I logged on to the work laptop and was greeted with three reminders about urgent meetings this morning. Fuck. I'd forgotten all about them.
I battled through the meetings and decided I'd still take some personal time this afternoon. I still have the headache, but I don't think I'm that sleepy any more. Tired, yes, sleepy, no.
I was meant to be meeting Nerdy Girl tonight, having rainchecked from Monday, but I'm tired: partly due to having a few drinks last night, being out for a work thing and waking this morning at 5:30 AM and not being able to get back to sleep.
So I'm not really feeling it for tonight, but I don't really want to postpone on her again.
I was invited to a family thing last evening, and I'd been looking forward to it for a while. But after the meal, we adjourned to a bar and I felt really off. Not ill or anything, but just something. I wasn't drunk - I only had like four drinks. But while I enjoyed myself, I was very antsy. I just don't know why.
I left, came home (quite early) and went straight to bed. I've been awake since just after 3 AM, and it's killing me. And I do feel a little off today, ina physical way. I don't know if there's something else going on or if it's the lack of sleep.
I also remember a very small portion of a dream where actress Kaley Cuoco was comforting me for some reason. She pulled me into her chest, then started kissing me. And that's all I can remember.
I was going to make a post about how I slept really well last night and didn't wake until nearly 10 AM. It was only when I sat down and started typing that I remembered that the clocks changed last night and I "lost" an hour.
But I didn't lose an hour's sleep because I still slept longer than usual, by about an hour. It seems I'm still catching up on the past few days.
I slept well last night, but I still woke early due to having a coughing fit at 7 AM. Usually, I'd try to get back to sleep but I knew immediately that that was me for the day. So I'm up, showered and ready to go. There's adulting to be done today and I am strangely motivated, so let's go.
With regards to the coughing fit and the current lurgy, the cough is gradually getting worse, but there aren't really any other symptoms to speak of. Let's hope that continues. A sore throat/cough I can deal with, but my eyes have a tendency to get sore when looking at screens when I get a cold (or similar illness), and that's my job, so I'd like to avoid that.
The illness I reported a few days ago hasn't really gotten any better (or worse for that matter). The lack of sleep over the past few days hasn't helped though. I should have logged off from work a couple of hours ago due to a few long days this week, but the urgent work I mentioned before has only now been resolved.
I reckon that means an early finish at some point next week.
I've not slept well over the past few nights and I am really feeling it today. I woke early this morning but got back to sleep. In this second spell of sleep, I had a dream. It featured two women from work. One of them was Quiet Girl, the other was a girl I've worked with briefly who gives me Kate Mara vibes.
We were at some kind of work retreat, Quiet Girl was being her usual friendly self. Maybe a little more tactile than usual, but nothing out of the ordinary. And the Kata Mara girl was also getting friendly. There was nothing more, just the three of us being a trio at a work event.
I woke up with a headache - a lack of sleep - and a desire to take today off work and get a lie-in, but I have too much urgent work to complete to even consider it as an option.
The internet dick crossed my mind briefly when I went to bed last night, but only briefly. I think my assumption yesterday that he'd already blocked me and so didn't see my last message where I'd called out his hypocrisy. (I am am little disappointed that the other moderator didn't reach out - I think we had decent rapport and worked well together.)
That, I think, translated into a very good night's sleep. I feel great this morning.
I didn't sleep at all last night. That's the second time this week it's happened. However, while I've no idea why Tuesday night was sleepless, last night's was all about the internet dick.
My smart watch tells me I got 5.5 hours of sleep, but it really didn't feel like that. I got half of that if I was lucky. It also reported high heart rate (the anxiety) and high temperature.
Surprisingly, the internet dick never replied to my last message despite his history and personality needing to have the last word. Will he reply today (he's based in the USA so there are time differences to consider)? I don't know, but my plan is delete the message unread if I can. I've said my piece. Though I am now wondering if I was already blocked after he had the last word and my most recent message hasn't been delivered.
I dropped off to sleep quite quickly last evening, but woke after about an hour. It was after 5 AM when I finally dropped off to sleep. Originally, I was meant to be awake by 7:15 AM for an office day, but fuck that. I cancelled my alarm and dropped off to sleep for an extra hour.
It was after 9AM by the time I got into work - a full hour later than usual.
I had a massive headache due to lack of sleep, so I decided to cut my losses and leave at lunch. My boss had other plans, asking me for several chores. It actually helped - focusing on some problems distracted me from the slow passing of time and my headache.
But I'm glad I'm back home now. It should mean an earlier finish on Friday though.
My sleep this week has been awful. Is it a change in the weather? That sometimes plays havoc with my sleep patterns. Is it being back at work after 2 weeks off? That doesn't help either. Nor does having to get up at 7 AM for a rare day in the office, like yesterday.
Anyway, there were several dreams last night in between bouts of being awake. K feature in a dream, as did BW, though I have no recollection of the actual dream content, just that they featured. BR might have featured too.
So, with three nights of poor sleep behind me, I am really struggling this afternoon. Roll on the weekend.
Well, it's finally done. Arguably, it's something I should have done ten years ago, but the first part of the house renovation is complete. I got lucky, too. The previous system was old and in really bad shape and I am genuinely surprised that it never just packed up.
I gave USHW a running commentary from my office, which I didn't leave for the entire day until I inspected the work.
And I'm hoping for a good night's sleep, because I only got about 3 hours last night. And due to that memory/thought about FBS, I've been... frustrated all day long.
I didn't sleep last night. I had to be up early to prep for the work guys who arrived at 8 AM, but a recurring thought/memory I had last night as I was trying to get to sleep was a night at FBS's back in the day. At this stage, we'd fooled around a bit - kissing, but no sex. However, each time, I made sure FBS was on top so I could stroke her back.
On this particular evening, as we settled into this pattern, she made a decision. I was going to be on top, this time. And that's how it panned out. But it was different, and not just with me being on top. She was a little more aggressive, grinding against me, hooking her legs around me. It was a definite prelude to sex, though it would be another few weeks before we took that step.
So... yeah. A pleasant if somewhat frustrating thought that popped into my head several times in the early hours of this morning.
I barely slept last night. I think it was nerves because I had to talk to a few neighbours about work that I'm getting done to my house tomorrow. Now, I have no issues with my direct next door neighbours - they're lovely.
It's the people who live directly opposite me that were causing anxiety. I've no reason to think badly of them, but I've never actually spoken to them in the ten years I've lived here and the thought of rapping on their door to ask a favour filled me with dread.
They do, however, own three cars and a motorhome, that takes up more than their fair share of parking space in the street, and that's what I needed to chat to them about.
Thankfully, while I was talking to my direct neighbour, they came out of the house and I was able to ask them to move their cars for tomorrow.
So, all sorted. Phew.
Another semi-remembered dream from last night, but the details are long gone. FA2 might have featured, but in what capacity, I really couldn't tell you. I don't think it was sexual.
This isn't a post about the dream itself but more that I've more dreams, or I've remembered more dreams, over the past few days than in the past six months combined.
Is it related to quality of sleep? I've slept really well since buying the new mattress, despite the back pain. But it's not been great over the past week. A change in the weather and the change in clocks maybe?
I've already awake for hours. I woke at around 5 AM and couldn't get back to sleep. I've got a headache that won't shift and a craving for a proper Latte from somewhere. I decided that I'd treat myself to a fry-up brekkie from the cafe round the corner and trundled round in the pouring rain, only to find that it wasn't open, despite Google telling me that it was.
My back has been giving me grief for the past few months, sporadically. I really need to get back into my yoga. But last night was a particularly bad night. I feel asleep quite quickly, but I woken less than an hour later, then spent nearly two hours trying to get back to sleep.
Additionally, I had to start early this morning, so that meant waking an hour earlier and boy am I feeling it this morning.
Lots of coffee, I think.
I bought a new smartwatch at Xmas because I was planning on trying to up my exercise and lose some weight this year. I've also started keeping it on at night to track my sleep. I've been convinced that my sleep has been awful for a long time - years, in fact.
So over the past 2 weeks, apparently the average sleep I'm getting is just shy of eight hours a night. But it doesn't feel like that.
I'll need to dig into the details a bit more to see what the quality is like, and how exactly the smart watch is recording my sleep. There are still a lot of days where I wake and I feel awful. Today was one of them. Yesterday was not. But yesterday I supposedly got 9 hours.
