It's game over, or rather it will be in about four hours when I consider it too late to call anyone. Generally that's 10 PM... text messages are another matter. Not that I'm actually expecting RB to call or text. I'm not. However, I'm still rather confused as a) I still don't believe she's the type to go silent and b) there's no reason to avoid me as she does obviously like me (and I still think romantically rather than in a platonic way). Even if she doesn't want to socialise or become friends, why avoid sending a text message saying "thanks but no thanks"? Is that too much to ask for? This is the bit that gets me and a little part of me thinks there might be some other reason.
Still, we're in to the final hours now.
I'm hugely disappointed in both RB and the general situation. It's just like me to find a girl that I like, who likes me in return, but who has so much baggage she doesn't actually want to see me or contact me.
I know that, reading back that last sentence, it sounds a little desperate, almost as if I'm talking myself into some idea that she does like me, but she does. I was on the date and the open body language was there, she was vocally appreciative and said nice things about me to her housemate, plus invited me to kiss her quite a lot and enjoyed it, too.
The past few days have been emotionally draining. I did really want her to call over the weekend after my text message and phone call of last week, but the lack of response has been frustrating and disappointing. Today, at work, I was totally distracted all day long. I hope by drawing a line under RB this evening that I become more focussed this week.
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