I applied for the job last week, but even before I submitted the application, I knew I didn't really want it. I can still withdraw my application, but regardless, I don't think my boss will let me leave the team right now. There's too much on and we're already under-staffed.
But, at least applying for the job will show my current manager how unhappy I am. He doesn't see it, but I have a lot more visibility into the people, around me than he does. I know what they do daily, I know how much they earn and in nearly all instances they're better off than I am - fewer responsibilities, higher grades, higher salary.
At least, that's what I hope (that he'll see how unhappy I am) - that's also KfW2's theory. It's, quite frankly, downright insulting the way promotions and pay-rises have been given out over the past few years.
And I'm not entirely sure that my manager will take it well. In fact, I expect him to take it badly, and if I read him right, he'll complain about his problems and ignore the fact that this is not a knee-jerk reaction, but the culmination of four years of frustration on my part.
They could talk me into staying, but that would require an immediate promotion and a pay rise. I know my peers earn 30% more than I do, but I'm realistic. I'd settle for 10%, but even that's impossible.
They will cite company policy for not being able to do something (even though they are/were going to employ someone who would be a higher grade than me and earn more).
I'm nervous about having the conversation with my boss, but I'm more likely to come out of the meeting angry than satisfied.
Sigh.
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