For some reason, over the past few days, I've had both RB and K on my mind when I wake up. I can't remember any recent dreams, so I don't know if either woman is featured. However, they have been in my thoughts almost immediately upon waking.
I doubt it's a coincidence that the most unpredictable women that I've been physical with (i.e. bonkers) are featuring heavily in my thoughts at the same time.
I still remember the bemusement from A and USHW when I admitted a liking for women's backs. I have to say that even after all this time, a well-fitted, backless dress really does do something for me.
Case in point: Christina Ricci
KfW2 replied to my questions after her concerns from yesterday. It's not surprising, in hindsight. I knew that she was frustrated with her new place. What I didn't realise was how bad things were. KfW2 doesn't like people knowing that she's underperforming to her own ridiculously high standards.
But I think there's an element of running before you can walk to her current crisis. Since she left our team, she's moved through three different jobs, all promotions. No sooner had she completed the minimum time in one role, then she moved into another. There was no time to gain experience, to become comfortable with what she was doing, to learn and to grow.
And this new job in the new company was similar, though the jump in knowledge and experience required for it was much bigger than she'd experienced before.
Bear in mind that she left because she felt she wasn't getting support. I am not sure that's correct, but I feel, sometimes, there's an entitlement to KfW2 when it comes to getting help from other people. She's complained about babysitting by her parents (or the lack thereof) and yet I've seen first-hand that her parents adore both her and her kids. Having been promoted three times in four years and had at least two opportunities handed to her on a plate, I don't think lack of support was an issue.
But it's kinda the same argument. No support, a perceived lack of efficiency, too much work for one person and she's stressed.
I tried to suggest dinner and drinks, but she claims she's too tired to do anything. So, who knows when we'll get out? I'll try and call her soon though. She sounds like she needs a chat at the very least.
Tinder threw up a surprise this morning. I think I've posted before about the crushes from my primary school. Most of my male friends were fans of the blonde girl (mentioned in this post), whereas I was more drawn towards a brunette, elfin girl and another girl who I find difficult to describe (but I think I've mentioned that when I think of her, I'm reminded of Cristin Milioti).
Sadly, neither "Cristin Milioti" nor the elfin girl popped up on Tinder. But the attractive blonde girl did. She's still very attractive. Athletic, too, which ticks one of Ruuude's boxes. I've swiped right... I nearly always do with women I know, even though "know" is a bit of a stretch.
Similarly, a senior manager from my company appeared on Tinder a few months ago. Again, we know each other at least to say "hi" to, and she's also an attractive blonde woman, but I did not swipe right that time.
A somewhat out-of-the-blue WhatsApp message from KfW2 earlier. Not the fact she was in contact... despite not seeing each other face to face as often as I would like, we do message frequently. The "out of the blue" aspect was that she made a reference to perhaps not being as happy in her new job as she would have liked and said that she might want to return to her old place of work.
Now, while the tone of the message was that she was being flippant, she sounded frustrated any time I've spoken to her about work. It wouldn't surprise me if she wanted to return. The thing is, she never left for a pay rise. She left for a perceived lack of support. I say "perceived" because ever since she left the team where we worked together, she has constantly been rewarded, promoted, and praised. For KfW2 to cite a lack of support always seemed strange to me, but admittedly I knew little about her new team and department.
Obviously, I've replied with questions. Let's see what she says.
CC sent a text.
"Dinner?"
I didn't particularly want to. It's been difficult forcing myself to leave the house recently. Plus, I have this weird thing going on with CC. I don't mind her company, but I really don't like the almost interrogation that goes on when we're out with the sudden shift in conversation when we're, IMO, halfway through a topic of conversation.
I agreed to an early dinner though. I was knackered yesterday and didn't want to be out late. I was also feeling a little under the weather, so not in great form. CC picked a Mexican place just a few yards away from CB Bar.
After dinner, CC suggested heading to her place for drinks. I had already explained that I wanted an early night, but she tried to force the issue and huffed when I declined the invitation.
Still, the food was nice, and we went for gelato afterwards.
Hallowe'en is over, which means the race to Christmas starts now. I've probably said before, but this time of year is easily my least favourite. The seven weeks between Hallowe'en and Christmas Day just depresses me - the days get shorter, the weather gets colder, and Christmas is shoved down your throat.
The flip side to the above is that the week between Christmas and New Year is one of my favourites. I tend to be off work, seeing friends, and the pressure of buying presents etc. has gone for another year.
So, here we go...
