Bored.

For some reason that I cannot fathom (semi-random link surfing), I've found myself looking at Jenni Lee's Twitter pictures. I'm not a huge fan of Twitter (I have an account, but I never post and rarely read the subscriptions I have), but I am a big fan of Jenni's erm... work. She's an adult actress.

Already looking forward to the weekend.

The countdown is on... this week I have two nights out planned. The plastic date is supposedly still on (well, I've not heard anything to the contrary and will text and confirm tomorrow) and GB's party is at the weekend. GB today mentioned that MFF was in attendance, but there's still no information on CB at all.

I have "decided" (i.e. assumed) that CB is going but for reasons that I do not understand, this is being kept secret from me. Whether she does or not turn up is ultimately not that important in the grand scheme of things, but if she's not there and GB still hasn't coughed up some information (even if the information is that there's nothing happening), then I'm not going to be impressed by GB.

Regardless, on Friday night I should be in the company of KfW2, CH, MM and MM's stunningly attractive and really nice blonde friend who's in town - not all at the same time, mind you. That alone should make it a fun night and for that reason, I'm looking forward to it.

*yawn*

I didn't sleep very well last night. I kept having the same dream about not revising for my university exams which were the next day, then waking up in a panic before realising that I graduated well over ten years ago and returning to sleep, only to repeat the cycle all night. I think I woke about five or six times because of this dream.

Suffice to say, I'm not in the best of moods today. I'm due to head to the gym early this afternoon, so maybe a spot of exercise will do me good.

Things that make you go "hmmm".

I'm half-expecting a phone call or text message within the next hour from KfW2 to invite me to the pub - she's out with CC and a couple of her mates for a meal, so meeting up afterwards is very do-able. But who knows?It's not something we've discussed, it's just a gut feeling. While she's very fond of inviting people out to other people's engagements, I don't know if she's likely to make last minute changes to her own plans. It's probably not at the forefront of her mind as she will be inevitably late to the restaurant.

If there is no phone call, then it's a quiet night in, which isn't a bad thing as I am meant to be at the gym tomorrow to continue the start of my fitness regime. Though I am in the mood for a few drinks. I might get in touch with S.

As a side-note, there's still nothing from GB regarding CB. I'm now torn between waiting until next Friday (I have my suspicions about who is going to turn up to GB's party) and just going to MFF directly to see what's happening. We're only a few days off it being 6 weeks since GB first volunteered to go off and get CB info and I've had to ask/remind her at least twice (possibly three times) since then and I am actually starting to get annoyed by it all.

Oh, and another thing...

There's not a lot you can do with no information, and GB still hasn't come up with any information regarding MFF's investigation into CB (I reminded her again yesterday). I've been fluctuating between pessimism (it's an outside bet at best that anything come from it) to optimism (why wouldn't she want to meet - I'm sure I can get good references from GB and MFF).

GB is hosting a party at her new gaff in just over a week and MFF is invited. As far as I can see, MFF hasn't  ruled out her attendance, so if GB hasn't managed to get any information my way, I might try the direct approach. Of course, if anyone had any sense, MFF would bring along CB and we'd all have an answer one way or the other by the end of that evening. Maybe this is the plan and GB's trying to keep it secret by "forgetting" to talk to MFF?

As an aside, that night I'm hopefully meeting MM and her stunning blonde friend. I've mentioned the stunning blonde before, but am unsure if I've given her a name. Either way, I'm hoping that I'll be able to meet MM and the blonde stunner for a few drinks before heading up to GB's.

Blast from the past.

I had a conversation recently with a friend about the perfect hotel for the archetypal "dirty weekend" - where you could check in and not see daylight for three days. Somehow, this reminded me of a hotel I once stayed in in London when I was meeting people from my online hobby back then.

I remember checking into the hotel and finding my room, which was HUGE! Two double beds, massive amounts of space and a massive bathroom, spotlessly clean and new.  I think that was back when I first considered sleeping with K (what a mistake that turned out to be) and nearly, I think (alcohol induced memory loss), ended up sleeping with someone else.

When we had a return trip a year or so later, I thought that I'd booked into the same place, only to find that I had stupidly booked into this tiny hotel next door that wasn't really up to scratch. Off the back of the recent conversation, I found the original hotel on the internet and it appears that I must have gotten the only decent room in the entire hotel - reviews and photos suggest that it's grubby, poorly maintained and small.

Ah well.

Role reversal.

I don't think I've made any comments here about a specific aspect of the CB journey thus far, mainly what I perceive (sometimes) to be... I don't know if I have the words. I was originally going to say a "lack of effort" but I am not sure that's exactly I'm thinking of though - apathy maybe? I've mentioned it to USHW the odd time, but I'm not sure I'm making myself clear.

I asked GB about whether or not she had spoken to my mutual Facebook friend regarding any movement on the CB thing. It's been over two weeks since Mutual Facebook Friend said that she would make her own enquiries, it's been four weeks since GB first volunteered to go off and do some fact finding for me.

The answer to my question to GB was that she hadn't, nor had she heard from MFF. That's the second time I've felt that I had to remind GB about CB. Personally, I think this is weird - GB volunteered to get the info and seemed excited to get involved. I could have spoken to MFF myself, even though I don't know her that well, and probably had some resolution by now, but I don't want to suddenly start talking to MFF and cut GB out of the loop at this stage.

I'm not complaining about the time this is taking per se, but it's more that I don't understand why GB isn't being more pro-active for someone who was so excited that I saw CB on Facebook in the first place. The same kinda applies to CH - she's definitely someone who was interested in the CB situation (and given pre-Xmas convos, she is interested in me finding a girl in general, so why the lack of interest when there is someone I'm interested in)

Neither of these people have been that pro-active in helping things along, even though both of them are direct friends with MFF and supposedly care that I find someone. If the situation had been reversed, I believe that I would have been a lot more pro-active in getting information from whatever source needs to be contacted, and I might even go as a far as saying that matters would be resolved by now - there would be an introduction of the two people or the object of affection would decided that it wasn't to be.

I'm sure I can explain this all better, but I am physically exhausted and just about keeping my eyes open. I might comer back and re-word it appropriately, but it's getting posted for now.

So...

...not twenty minutes ago, UF puts a wash on. It's fucking quarter past midnight FFS! I'm not starting anything now, but I have gone into the utility room and turned the washing machine off. The fucking useless twat can restart it in the morning as he leaves for work... which is what he should have fucking done in the first place.

Also, the bin in the kitchen has been full since probably Monday (I've not been in the house much) and I'll probably have to empty it when I return from work tomorrow because no-one else will.

This is really starting to take the piss now.

Figure this out...

7:00PM
UF puts clothes in washing machine then proceeds to sit in his room for a couple of hours

9:15PM
UF actually turns washing machine on which will take approximately 2.5 hours

My mind cannot grasp the logic that this guy uses.

Bleurgh.

I dunno if it's nerves (KfW2's suggestion), the ambiguity of the whole thing (every female I know) or if I simply can't be arsed with the hassle (me), but I'm really not feeling the whole date thing for Thursday night. Do I play it straight (i.e. pretend that it is a real date) or is it safe to come out and talk about why we're meeting? The girl's text messages haven't given anything away (in fact, they sound more like proper date texts), although MM is fully aware that I have other things on my plate.

That also might be playing on my mind a little - it's nearly two weeks since GB spoke to mutual Facebook friend who was going to do her own investigating and, IMO, I should have heard something by now. Bad news especially. If CB's aware of me and has done her own Facebook investigation, I'm sure she's already made her mind up about whether she wants to meet me. A negative reply should already be in my inbox, no?

In talking to USHW about it as well, I have a firm goal in mind: an introduction. It's not enough, I think, to get us into the same room - we've already been there - but I need someone to actually introduce us and I can take it from there.

Grumpy drawers.

The night out with GM and the rest went ahead as planned. CH wasn't able to make it, but that was expected. My gut feeling about something being set up behind the scenes with regards to CB was unsurprisingly well off the mark, but I'd kinda figured that out when I saw that our mutual Facebook friend wasn't on the list for the work thing. The only other noteworthy incident was spotting a girl I chatted up during the summer - she kept looking over at me as if she recognised me but couldn't place my face - but as I was starting to get really drunk and not in a great mood, I went home around midnight.

While the night was fun at times, I wasn't in brilliant form and got a bit tetchy with GB and one of S's friends. I think that might have been partly because CH wasn't able to show up - she was missed.

It also seems like ages since GB and the Mutual Facebook Friend had their chat about CB, but it's only been a week. However, I'd like to think that some information is going to come my way really soon. If not, I'll maybe have to have another word with GB probably before the end of the week.