There's a lot to look forward to in 2021 - specifically everything around getting vaccinated and being able to go out and socialise again. I can't wait for the summer, to have people round for BBQs, to meet KfW2 for our long-awaited adult night or day out, to sit in a pub with FP and just people watch over a few pints.
2020 played havoc with my mental health. As I posted about recently, I have missed socialising and being out and about, despite being an introvert. I have found myself getting lazier, less inclined to leave the house. That's exacerbated the loneliness. I've also been trying to plan out some work that I want done to the house (and can now afford), but I am getting overwhelmed with what needs done. Bearing in mind that, for some reason, I simply can't get people to come and quote me for work (this isn't a pandemic thing - this has been an issue since I moved in), then I also can't get a professional's advice.
Professionally, I had a GREAT year and I'm hoping to see that reflected in a promotion and/or pay rise when that all rolls round in a month or so. It was stressful too - I had a lot on, but I accomplished loads and my work was seen by many managers. I do have issues with my immediate manager taking credit for some good stuff I've done though. I can't prove that he's done it, but the lack of gratitude from senior management in my direction does leave me a little uneasy.
This year though, I'm not looking forward to work. Brusque Guy is back, having been in another team for the past year or so. I don't know why he's re-joining us - it was his choice to leave for a new opportunity and the manager helped make that happen. I like him, personally, I just don't like working with him. I feel the atmosphere in the team was better without him, even if the team was just me and Stalky Guy. There are other things in play that are going to be stressful, too. It could end up being extremely rewarding - learning new skills etc. but I have strong imposter syndrome, and even though this new training is my idea, I like the fact that I am an expert in my current team and am seen as being knowledgeable.
Back to work tomorrow after a week off, but because I've done nothing nor really left the house beyond going to my sister's for Xmas, I don't feel like I've recharged my batteries and I'm really not looking forward to it.
Taking all that into consideration, I only really have one goal for this year (it seems pointless making other plans until we see how the pandemic turns out - meeting new people, travel etc. is still impossible right now) and that's weight loss. Specifically by the end of June. I've not done the numbers nor stepped on a scale since, I dunno, November maybe? But I'm probably looking at something around an average of 2 lbs per week. That's a big ask over a long period of time.
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