Funkadelic.

Today has very definitely been a funk day. It's the worst I've felt in some time, if I am being honest. I've been extremely low energy, feeling very pessimistic and sorry for myself (and believe it or not, I don't often feel sorry for myself). I think most of it is borne of the pandemic and the lockdown, and the loneliness and a desire for companionship is really at the core of it. 

Certainly the whole "being single" thing has definitely been a factor in today's mood. It's almost like I've been craving that feeling that you get when you meet someone new, that you're attracted to and it might go somewhere. It's been years since I had that feeling. It could be as far back as RB for the last time I felt that, and that was a lifetime ago. Obviously there have been crushes since then, but nothing that ever looked as if it would develop into something. But the early days of FA2, CAB etc, that's what's been at the forefront of my mind today.

Also, as mentioned a few days ago, there is some work stuff going on that's causing some stress as well. I think the weather, and winter in general, are getting to me (I think I've posted recently about wanting to travel somewhere sunny and warm for a change of scenery and pace).

So, all-in-all, my batteries are drained.

It's a year to the day when I last met FP for a few pints in a pub. Barring one socially distanced walk with Nerdy Girl, I've not seen any non-family member in months.

I'm meeting Nerdy Girl for a walk tomorrow, which will at least be some exercise and a bit of socialising, and as much as I think NG is great, I miss FP and KfW2 (and The Crowd).