Meh 2... Meh Harder.

My funk from yesterday has continued today. This is unusual. In the past when I've had off days with regards my relationship status, it's been a little niggle at the back of my mind, but this current on, so far, is occupying a great deal of my though over these past two days.

I'll be honest, yesterday, I thought I was starting to look at KfW2 less than platonic way and that concerned me, because KfW2 is a friend (and I mean that properly, not just as "someone I know") but I don't think that's the issue now. I will say that KfW2 has a lot of characteristics that I look for in someone, but there's also that I think I saw KfW2 with her boyfriend on Saturday night and that stirred something. It was nice to see a relationship just work, especially after listening to DSC and her own train wreck of a relationship pretty much constantly for the past 18 months and I think that prompted me to want that myself... especially with someone as cool and attractive as KfW2.

Meh.

A while ago, KfW2 said that she was meeting a friend of hers, but he wasn't going to be available until late. I then suggested that between her arriving in the city until her friend arriving, I'd meet her for a drink and keep her company.

Ultimately, I ended up staying out all night even though I'd planned on leaving when her friend showed and I had an excellent night out.

Today, though, I'm feeling very "meh" mainly about my relationship status. I don't know what prompted it, but I've not been my usual self today and this is  what's been at the back of my mind all day. Meh.

Patience is a virtue.

Yes, yes... I am writing about FA2, but it's taking ages. It's not a short story. I'm considering scrapping the whole thing and using bullet points instead. Bullet points are ace.

I am getting lazy.

I know, I know, another digest of sorts. I was (and am) planning on doing an in-depth blog on each of the following topics, but I just wanted to mention them here in the meantime:

• FA2 got married a few days ago. I don't know if I ever explained fully what happened between us, but she's the first (serious) ex I've heard of to tie the knot.
• Since my last blog post, I've been dreaming a lot about RB, but for what reason, I've no idea.
• Despite doing a job that I like and have wanted to do for a long time, I keep going through periods of seriously looking at something else.
• I look upon JB as my little sister, but everytime I've gotten drunk over the past few months, I just want to fuck her.
• I want to go travelling again.
• I was out with M a few weeks ago and MMBF was mentioned. I said in no uncertain terms that she was lovely. Whether that gets back to her remains to be seen, but we've tentatively made arrangements to meet within a few weeks.
• I am seriously considering the housemate options at the moment.

Forgotten totty.

A blast from the past... a friend and I were talking about forgotten totty from yesteryear and this was my contribution: Gemma Atkinson. I've never watched any of the TV programmes that she was in, but there's no denying she's a sexy, attractive woman.

Dreams.

I had a weird dream last night. I woke up around 3AM to the sound of what appeared to be the couple above fucking the brains out of each other - this bit isn't part of the dream, but I imagine it's what prompted it. I rolled over and went to sleep and sometime between then and waking up again at 8AM, I had a dream where I was dating RB. I can't remember the specifics, but we were on holiday somewhere and instead of sharing a room with her, I was sharing a room with DSC. RB was sharing a room with another, unidentified woman. Also popping into the dream were a bloke from work (who's one of the most miserable, negative people you will ever find) and KfW2 who appeared to be romantically tied to the miserable bloke. beyond that, I don't remember an awful lot. I've posted dreams on here before when I feel they should make sense and I feel this one should. Both KfW2 and DSC are important in my life right now, just for being good friends. RB did figure prominently in my life for a brief time and this other guy is currently the bane of my life because I'm fed up trying to get him to be his own person - he has an awful habit of not making his own mind up on anything.

Regardless of what the dream actually meant, the couple fucking last night, with KfW2 and RB (both of whom I think are very attractive, sexy women) has meant that today has been an incredibly frustrating day.

Hopefully, a few pints with M in the pub later will take my mind off that!

Laziness and procrastination

I haven't posted anything meaty in a bit - there are no excuses, just laziness and procrastination. There are things I want to say, but I can never find the energy to sit down and type them up.

Nothing's happened so far with MMBF despite the handy links of MM, QC2 and M. I shall plan on getting M out next week for beers and seeing how the land lies. I still remain suitably confused regarding where to go with MMBF, but I think I shall put this uncertainty to the side and just go with the flow. At least, that's USHW's advice. USHW is being more decisive. She reckons that if I can't nail it down, then there's nothing to nail down - feelings-wise. I dunno.

Regardless, M should be back from his honeymoon, so it's about time we headed out for some beers. I don't want to make a HUGE night of it because the next night is a night out with D, FBS etc. and they're usually extremely drunken. However, if I get in there early enough, MM might well arrange a girly night out while M and I are solving the world's problems and if that happens, we're bound to hook up with the girls later that evening.

I'll start things moving tomorrow.

Flashback.

Every time I see this picture of Liz Hurley, I think of CAB. While I don't think they look alike beyond vague similarities (brunette, similar figure etc.), there's just something about this photo that reminds me of her, both facially and in terms of body. CAB had a magnificent body, and this picture really does remind me of her.

;)

I am tipsy and mischievous. This is not a good combination.

A little help from my friends

I'm probably going to miss an awful lot here, but I'll try and get everything into words. I had my night out with QC2, as recently arranged. Nights out with QC2 are good - she's good company, we have a laugh and, when required, we have the serious conversations too. The only issue is that we don't do it enough. Last week's meeting, for example, was our first in easily 18 months, despite both of us trying to arrange something on a semi-regular basis. Because these meet-ups are so infrequent, we tend to miss out an awful lot of "news". I know I do, but part of that is my own issue and I believe I've blogged about it before with regards to QC2. I feel uncomfortable talking about myself, or at least making me the topic of conversation, so when I wanted to tell QC2 about RB a few years ago, I didn't because we didn't get around to talking about my love life or lack thereof. In fact, just as an aside, I think Thursday was the first time I mentioned RB to QC2.

However, things got off to a decent start. QC2 was very excited about telling me that she knew a girl who was at the same wedding as me (M and MM last week), and I smugly said that I knew who she was talking about - MM's brunette friend. I explained that I thought she was interesting and cute, but never went as far as to say that I was conflicted about how I felt about her - platonic or not? We kinda got side-tracked onto how useless I am at spotting the signals with women and QC2 mentioned that, in the past, she had noticed women being very interested while I was oblivious.

She mentioned two - FBS and QC3 as well as a few other random women from nights out in the pub. I kinda knew about both FBS and QC3, after all, FBS and I fucked a few times and the QC3 thing was common knowledge, but we circled around each other for a few weeks until she left the country. The latter incident stems from me not wanting to be the centre of attention. QC3 and myself spent plenty of time in each other's company in the pub, but always with our friends watching to see what would happen. What I should have done was asked QC3 out on different nights where I have no doubt that we would have hooked up, but that was easy to spot in hindsight.

Getting back to QC2, she had mentioned that MM's brunette friend (MMBF) has often asked QC2 to come out to the pub. If that's the case, and I do decide to pursue MMBF, then I might make this work to my advantage. If I'm out with M and MM, QC2 and MMBF are all out, then if there is any chemistry, I can rely on QC2, I hope, to report back because I will, inevitably, not see it.

The waiting game.

All last week, I had been looking forward to M's wedding. It's been ages since I was at a full wedding and I was anticipating seeing some old school friends as well as two of M's fiancé's friends (M's fiancé will be known as MM from now on). After talking to a few friends like DSC, I had plans to investigate whether MM's friends (they've been mentioned before in posts, this one being the most recent - a blonde and a brunette) were showing any interest. There's a little chemistry with both of them, but not enough to be able to say with any certainty that any approach would be welcome.

So, cue the wedding. A great day was had by all, but the goals of having a good chat with either of these ladies fell somewhat short of the mark. I had a brief, 15 minute, chat with the blonde (SBF) during the afternoon and she was as stunning as I remember, but she left early and before I was in any position to take the conversation further (i.e. before I hit just the right stage of drunkenness where I get the confidence to approach people). Later in the evening, towards the end of the night, I did get a chance to chat with the brunette. It was well after 11 PM before I got a chance to talk to her for the first time, and between then and the end of the night, we must have chatted a few more times. I caught her at the end of the night and made sure she got into a taxi OK (I did try to get her to stay longer to no avail), before I joined the others in the residents' bar. I'm not 100% sure that there's anything there... but I've laid some groundwork. I probably won't see her until M and MM return from their honeymoon, but even then, I've made some suggestions to M that the brunette is a catch. I've dropped a few hints with MM too.

As an aside, I've made arrangements to meet QC2 on Thursday and it just so happens that she is friends with MMBF (according to Facebook ) though I am unsure of the exact details. I might quiz QC2 and see what the score is there, too.

I'd said to DSC that I wasn't sure about the brunette as I wasn't feeling the chemistry the way I had in the past with others such as Date No. 1 or RB, but she suggested that it could be a slow burner because she thinks I am interested even if I don't recognise it myself.

I guess I'm not going to find out until after M and MM return.