Neither Quiet Girl nor Stalky Guy are going to this month's work event. I'm disappointed. It's not just Quiet Girl's non-attendance, but in general. My lack of social life over Xmas has continued into January, so I was hoping to get out to the pub, have a few drinks and do some people watching.
I've reached out to a few other people, but I am not holding my breath.
As expected, our monthly work night out has just been announced for the end of next week. I've already posted in our shared chat in work that has Quiet Girl and Stalky Guy in it. No replies as yet, but fingers crossed. It'd be good to get out and socialise and do some people watching. I've barely left the house this month.
It was extremely difficult to get out of bed this morning for work. I don't know why, there was nothing obvious on my mind this morning. Still I did manage it eventually, and things got back on track once I had a couple of large, strong coffees.
Was it because it was Blue Monday?
(I think the concept of Blue Monday is rubbish FWIW)
Facebook reminds me that it's my 18 year Facebook friendship anniversary with E3. I've not seen her in years. The photo that Facebook used was M's wedding, a day where I made tentative efforts to see if anything might happen with both MMBF and SBF. E3's attention didn't come until a few years later. Or at least, wasn't made public.
I wanted to make an effort to get back into yoga this week, but my motivation levels are near zero. We've been busy in work, so I am not getting the chance to do it during my lunchtime, which is when I've done it before. When it comes to logging off in the evening, I'm mentally exhausted, which is sucking my motivation.
The upside of being super busy is that the days are flying by. Well, two of 'em this week.
I slept really well last night. Weirdly, I woke this morning thinking about CAB. I don't know if there was a dream involved or not - I don't recall a dream. But the memory involved me talking to CAB. This would have been after I broke things off with her.
I was at a bar. The bar where I met R2. Actually, the same bar where I met CAB. I spent a lot of time there in my early 20s with AM, QC1 etc. Anyway, at the end of the evening as we were leaving to get a taxi home, I bumped into CAB. She started talking so I waved the others on. She wanted to get back together.
I can't remember the details of the conversation. I can't remember her argument for getting back together nor can I recall if I vocalised my reasons for not getting back together. My reasons for not getting back together were the same as my reasons for breaking up: she was due to move away to go to university, I wasn't interested in/considering long-distance, so I didn't see the point in continuing to date.
And I know that I definitely didn't share my ongoing frustrations about us not having sex. It was part of the reason I called things off, but not the main reason, which I explained above. I doubt it would have been a surprise to her, though.
But, yeah, that was the memory I woke to this morning.
It hasn't been announced as yet, but I am assuming there's going to be a work thing at the end of the month. If that's the case, I'll be trying to get people to attend. Quiet Girl, of course will be top of my list, but there are a few other people who are fun, and if not, then Stalky Guy.
That's something I'm going to try to do this year: more socialising - build upon what I did last year by going to more concerts, which I think was reasonably successful.
Brie Larson has popped up a lot recently when I have been browsing the internet, mostly on Instagram or Reddit. And her current look is giving me serious FBS vibes. It's the way she's styled and coloured her hair. She had it cut very short last summer for some theatre she was doing in England and she's growing it out.
It's still short, but not buzzcut short, which is how FBS wore her hair for a long time. And she had it the same colour too.
My sleep this week has been awful. Is it a change in the weather? That sometimes plays havoc with my sleep patterns. Is it being back at work after 2 weeks off? That doesn't help either. Nor does having to get up at 7 AM for a rare day in the office, like yesterday.
Anyway, there were several dreams last night in between bouts of being awake. K feature in a dream, as did BW, though I have no recollection of the actual dream content, just that they featured. BR might have featured too.
So, with three nights of poor sleep behind me, I am really struggling this afternoon. Roll on the weekend.
Out of the blue, I got a call from KfW2 an hour ago. Well, I say "out of the blue" but I have been hoping for/expecting a call for over a week now. But "out of the blue" in that it was during the middle of the day.
We chatted for about half an hour. KfW2 picked up on the fact that I wasn't really social over the holidays and promised that we would see more of each other this year, even if it was just for coffee. I've mentioned before that I'd much prefer dinner and drinks but in the interests of seeing her more regularly, a regular coffee sounds great.
She also said that she was going to ask me to go to her place last weekend, but that all got sidelined when her daughter had an accident. They want me to go down, with OP too. It's been a while since the old "come down because OP will be here too" card has been played.
She's made that promise before, but she's useless at planning anything beyond the next hour. Let's see how this pans out.
Only two days back at work and I'm already overloading on the "meh". Surprisingly, I didn't have that regret that I'd anticipated with not really having used my time off over the holidays to its full effect, but I still feel a little down. January blues, I guess.
And Blue Monday isn't for another few weeks.
KfW2 finally got back to me... sorta. I got a 30 second voice note on WhatsApp after I followed up with her about her daughter, who fell over and needed to go to hospital on New Year's Day.
"I've been meaning to call you all week!" was her opening line and then an update on her youngest daughter.
And nothing since.
Sigh.
AM posted on my New Year's post on Facebook. Unsurprisingly, it's the same old "we really must meet up soon". She won't, though, make any effort. I'm still waiting for the meet up she promised at FP's funeral, over two years ago.
A super attractive woman popped up on my online dating feed this morning. She was vaguely familiar. I think she might be a friend of QC1's. I'm pretty sure I've seen her before on someone's Facebook feed, and my gut says it's QC1.
She's also giving off Lucrezia Millarini vibes, and that's a very good thing.
Had a very pleasant few hours sitting with Nerdy Girl, drinking coffee and eating donuts this morning. And, I'm not gonna lie, my seat gave me an optimal view of the people walking past the coffee shop, many of whom were attractive ladies in leggings, despite the low temperatures.
We discussed our relative Christmas breaks (hers was busy, mine was not), she showed me some pictures of her friends (tall, blonde and attractive) and promised to introduce me to her girlfriend soon. They've been dating for around 18 months and I think she was only introduced to NG's family and friends this holiday season.
Very pleasant. And might just stave off the disappointment that I'll undoubtedly feel on Monday of having wasted my time off because I haven't seen the people I wanted to see (specifically KfW2).
Nerdy Girl reached out earlier to ask if I was free over the weekend, given her cancellation last weekend. I am free for a few hours tomorrow morning, so we're meeting for coffee.
I have plans in the afternoon to go see my brother-in-law, to chat about some of the house stuff I want to accomplish this year. He's kinda, sorta in the construction business, so he's always a good first port of call when it comes to that kind of stuff.
2026 is not off to a great start. I didn't sleep well last night, woken on several occasions by acid reflux. It's actually been a pattern this holiday, and it seems to be kicked off by alcohol. And it doesn't have to be a lot of booze, either.
The booze hit me quite quickly last night. Well, not quickly, but all at once.
I made a New Years post on Facebook around 11 PM and I was feeling OK, but I'd had a (small) bottle of Baileys and a couple of gins. By the time I came to write my blog post, with another gin in me, things were different. Typing was a problem. Heh.
Anyway... I went to bed shortly after posting and was more than a little tipsy at that stage, but I woke at least four times during the night with reflux. I had already taken an esomeprazole capsule, which is usually sufficient, but I needed additional help throughout the night.
I used to suffer quite badly from reflux, but it's been less of an issue over the past few years. But when it strikes, it goes in hard.
So, yeah, a lack of sleep.
