Sigh.

I know the last few posts have been bitching about my loneliness and my inability to get KfW2 out. But it does feel like it's hitting me a bit more this year than it has done in the past few years. I am nearly always lonely at Christmas, but it feels different this year.

It's a more specific loneliness - I want to meet someone. I've had holidays like that before, with that loneliness, but it's been a few years since it hit me like this.

KfW2 is bearing the brunt of it on the blog. I'm trying to scratch that itch by being social, by getting KfW2 or The Crowd out to the pub.

It's not really her fault, nor is it her fault that I can't get her out for dinner or drinks. Well, it kinda is, but she has her own life, kids, and a medical condition to manage. And I understand that. Doesn't mean that I have to like it.