I still haven't heard back from KfW2. That's a text message from over a week ago and a missed call that hasn't been returned. Ordinarily, I'd bitch about it but that'd be it. But as I said in one of my most recent posts, this year feels worse than it has done in some time.
I was insanely pleased a few months ago when KfW2 called. I'd sent a few text messages asking about her availability and she called me back a few days later, concerned.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I haven't seen you in a bit and wondered if you were free for dinner or drinks."
She pondered through a few things and suggested a possible end of November date or something after that, with her eldest son for Christmas, like we did a few years ago.
"Whatever suits you."
I didn't mean that. I don't want to be bundled into something else, just so she can tick a box. I don't like feeling like I'm a box that needs ticked. I'd like to see her because she wants to come out and be my company.
But, regardless, those plans never turned into anything. I could have chased her up, but I know that she simply forgot, or she was double-booked.
But the point being that I don't want to go back to work in two weeks time and think that I've done nothing. That's happened before where I've enjoyed my time off, but I've barely left the house, done some gaming, watched some TV and then gone back to work with nothing really to show for the time away.
And part of that is seeing people - being social. Not family, but those others close to me. And those who are close to me, I'm seeing less frequently. And that's also a factor in how I'm feeling.
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