Here we go.

Tomorrow is pretty much make or break in my friendship with CH. We've agreed to meet for coffee, but we're only able to do so because a previous engagement of CH's hadn't confirmed with her.

I'm still unconvinced that she won't cry off at some stage and that's only part of the issues I have with her. Despite having second thoughts myself this week about my concerns with CH, there are problems I want to address:

• She frequently cancels agreed social events.
• Afternoon coffee is always done on her terms and even if I say I'm free from 3PM (for example), I often return to my desk after a meeting at 2:55 to find she's left ten minutes earlier.
• She's not initiated conversation with me in months unless she wants something.
• She's been very quiet since Xmas.
• Even a birthday drink she wanted to buy me was done on her terms (because she refused to come out with everyone else).
• The few times I've tried to talk to her about serious stuff, she avoids the topic/ends the conversation/ignores it.

I'm not planning on tackling these issues individually, but rather address them all in one bunch - that I'm putting more into this than she is, that I often feel like an afterthought and that I think enough of her as my friend for it to be a problem.

Let's see what tomorrow brings.