Funkadelic Christmas

I'm in another funk. This isn't a surprise, as I tend to get a bit melancholic this time of year, especially when I'm single. I hate being single at Christmas as I've explained to USHW loads of times over the years, but it's worse this year than I remember it being recently. I've tried to get DSC out for a drink, but she's playing hard to get (she does have commitments such as family and a [useless] boyfriend), but it seems like ages since I last saw her and I know that she wasn't 100% happy on Christmas Day either, so perhaps a good whinging session over a drink might help us both out? At the very least, a few drinks in the pub having a good perv at the totty would help!

Just before Xmas, I was out with M and MM and it was mentioned (yet again) that I was single, but when MM mentioned potential dates, MMBF wasn't mentioned and others were. Am I reading too much into this? MMBF is still very cute and sexy, but I'd like to sit down and talk to her, rather than the drunken rambling that we normally indulge in. I might have to seriously start following up on this one rather than doing what I usually do and make a few slight hints and then leave everything to fall into place (which it invariable doesn't, obviously).

DSC continues to be vocal about why I'm not attached. She reckons I'm charismatic and funny and am able to generate chemistry. These things, without wanting to sound arrogant, can be true, if I'm in the mood. I have tonnes of chemistry with loads of people - F, KfW2, CH amongst others. And two of CH's friends have also been sucked in with may charm and cheek when on nights out.

Talking to women isn't the issue, it's finding one that I like. The last woman I was seriously attracted to was RB and that was too long ago - long enough that I am actually concerned that I haven't felt that spark with anyone else since.

Another part of the funk is that KfW2 was asking if I would host a party for New Year's Eve. Unlike a lot of people, I really do like NYE. I like the whole thing about drawing a line under one year and looking forward to the next and I like doing this with friends. This year, MfW has really fucked this up. His relationship with two mutual friends of ours has pretty much soured beyond reconciliation and with respect to at least one of the parties, this is all his fault. But as he is now a housemate, I can't simply have parties and invite whomever I want without at least considering him, and I know he's likely to either cause a scene or leave the flat (for the night). So, with this funk going on, I'm potentially looking at a NYE spent in the house on my own, and I hate that - I like socialising on NYE.