Oh dear.

CC called me in work. I missed the call because I didn't see the notification pop up. She was very snotty in her IMs.

"Call me"

So I did. Barring passing each other at work a few weeks ago, we'd neither seen nor spoken to each other in months. And I wasn't exactly missing her.

She cut right to the chase. 

"Are you busy tonight?"

"Yeah, I'm heading to my sis's"

"Oh, I needed you to do me a favour and help build/move furniture".

I suspected she was going to suggest meeting for dinner, not ask me for a favour after not seeing me for months. That's CC for you. I guess I should be glad I'm not attracted to her, or else I'd be in trouble. As USHW always said: I'm a sucker for a pretty face. That's not to say that CC is unattractive. She ticks a lot of boxes for my physical type. I'm just not attracted to her.

And speaking of USHW, she appeared in a dream last night. She was my "+1" at a wedding out of town, but somewhere along the way she disappeared and then I was playing footy with some people from work. And then USHW was back and... well, that's about it. I don't remember too many other details. My sleep pattern is still fucked though. 

Motivation.

One of the guys in work was talking about a local company who do bathroom remodelling. That's one of the things I have on my to-do list. The sums of money he was talking were surprisingly more affordable than I had realised (though still not a small amount of money). I should get them out to give me a quote on the work I'd like done to my house, and see if they have any interesting alternative ideas.

Zzzz.

This sleep thing is still an issue. As reported before, getting to sleep isn't an issue, but waking at 530 AM and struggling to get back to sleep is an issue.

However, the new mattress does appear to be paying dividends. My back is noticeably less sore than before. I still need to be more active, and that's proving more difficult to motivate myself into. I'd like to both get out of the house more and get back into the yoga. I don't know if that would help the sleep issue, but it's something I should be doing regardless.

Cramping my style.

I've had really bad stomach cramps all day today. The really unfortunate part was today was an office day, so not only was I out of the house, but it was also a longer day. Back home now, still suffering, but at least at home and not expected to work.

Oh dear.

Is there anything more depressing than reading your feed on the front page of LinkedIn?

Well, of course there is, but the sight of thousands of people trying to pretend that the corporate clog actually means something is soul destroying. 

Urgh.

I'm really tired. I've been waking regularly around 5 AM for the past few weeks and struggling to get back to sleep. That's giving me roughly about 5 hours of sleep a night and it's catching up on me. There's other stuff going on and some that's requiring my attention and I'm feeling quite overwhelmed by it all. None of it is serious, but it's just inconvenient and sorta timely, so it needs done.

I need some time off. I have a week already booked at the start of next month, but I need something before then. And maybe not just time off, but maybe I need to do something fun/distracting with that time off? I'll need to ponder that. 

I also have the gig with KfW2 at the start of next month before my week off, which I am already looking forward to, but I need something sooner than that, too.

Just chat.

One of our regular work nights out last night. Only Stalky Guy and I were in attendance from anyone I was friendly with in work. It was a bar I'd never been to before and it was excellent. Great vibes, open, airy, bright... I'll definitely be back another time.

Stalky Guy was all chat. And it was he who brought up Quiet Girl's friend who I think made a move on me last year. He didn't know that, mind you, even though if she did, she did it in front of both he and Quiet Girl herself. At least, that's my recollection.

But while I do have my reservations about Stalky guy's company at times, especially around his social skills, he was OK last night. Maybe that's because it was just the two of us, who knows?

Out, half a dozen drinks, and back home for around half past nine. And regular readers will know that I often like to post pictures of celebs who look like or give off vibes like the people mentioned on this blog, so here's another. The girl in this music video gives me Quiet Girl's Friend vibes. And it's just such a great song into the bargain. A real summer tune.

 

And if you're in the UK, the actress in the Lynx advert with the dog who attacks her date. She also gives off serious QGF vibes.

Oh?

For the first time ever, maybe, I dreamt about CB last night. A group of people from work, including GB, were travelling. We were joined by another group that included CB. GB got all conspiratorial and was teasing me about my crush on CB.

"You have a crush on her!" 

"Well, yeah, I've never made that a secret!" 

"What will you do if people find out?"

"Errr... nothing?"

"What will you do if I tell CB?"

"Dunno. Thank you?"

GB wasn't getting the rise she wanted. But the dream was pretty much that. GB teasing me, threatening to share the not-secret secret and we'd keep bumping into the crowd of people with CB, but never interacting directly with her.

Slightly frustrating. But I've not thought about CB in I don't know how long. Ages. So the subject of the dream surprised me somewhat.

Flying high.

The travel bug has hit hard over the past few days. I've been semi-looking at Canada as a possible destination: Toronto or Vancouver for a week or so.

I've not really thought about either of these places before but they've been in my mind. I can't even think of anything specific to these cities that I'd want to do or see. Compare that to New York where I could list off ten things to do/see without even thinking about it.

So, yeah, Canada. Hmmm.

Break up.

I'm slowly starting to adapt to the mattress. I'm falling asleep quicker (though the past few days have seen me out and about, working in the office which has really taken it out of me). But I'm waking around 530 AM and not really falling asleep again.

Anyway, I had a dream last night that featured FA2. In it, we were dating, but I was trying to break it off with her as gently as I could, but every time I tried to have that conversation, she would seduce me. I woke before any kind of resolution but I've not thought about FA2 in ages.

However, as I was typing the above, it came to me that this Friday is the anniversary of our becoming an item. We went to a bar, had a few drinks, ended up back at hers, I stayed over and we had "the chat" the next morning before going for another round or two.

We always disagreed on the date. She said it was the Friday, when we went back to her place and had sex. It had been building up to it all week, mind you. In my head, it was the Saturday, once we had "the chat".

Did I know that subconsciously? Is that why I had that particular dream?

Well?

Not that I plan on turning this blog into some kind of celebrity gossip blog or anything, but I saw these photos of Hayley Atwell promoting the latest Mission Impossible. Is it just me or has she lost a lot of weight? Moreso in the first and last photos here, less so in the second.

 Also... I never knew she had tattoos. I do like a woman with a few tattoos. The positioning of Atwell's is where I wanted to get my second, if I ever made a decision on what I wanted to get tattooed.