Following on from my last post about a massage, I suppose it's only right to explain why I've been tense recently. There's nothing particularly serious going on, but lots of little, silly things are all happening at once, adding up.
E's finally left the country after what seems to be the longest saga in the world. Nearly two years after making the decision to leave, everything finally fell into place for her and she's gone. I've even had an email from her already and she has arrived safely. We went out a few weeks ago (see the post here) and I was quite disappointed about how things were left, so tried to get to see her again. She volunteered to go out for a drink for an hour or so the night before she left to catch up/say goodbye. That would have been great, except she called an hour or so before we were due to meet as she was having a packing crisis (her pre-packed bags were over weight and would require re-packing) and had to cancel. Despite the fact we'll be in touch fairly regularly, it was still an unsatisfactory way to end things.
Work's been a pain in the arse completely. I've been training some Indian people who work for a company that's contracted the work that we currently do from our parent company, meaning the end of our department at work. It's no real big thing, job-wise as we'll be found new positions internally, and some of us will even get promoted as a result, so that's not too stressful, but we get along really well and it'd be sad to see the group split up. Dealing with the Indians directly – a girl and a boy isn't even that bad as they seem to be nice enough people, though they are taking up a lot of time and I still have my own work to do. What is annoying is that their boss is a fucktard that continues to make huge demands on my time as if he has a right to do so. My boss, thankfully, is on my side and we battle this guy constantly which is stress I don't need. Additionally, with taking this time to deal with the Indians and their boss, my own work is suffering. After a flawless record over the past two years at my current position, I made my first error last week, which was exacerbated by other mistakes happening at the same time. The whole sorry mess isn't my fault, but it all came at the wrong time and I attribute to the fact that I've felt like I've been pulled in four different ways at once over the past three weeks. I don't usually get stressed out, but the last three weeks have been hard. My boss is off at the moment, so I'm not sure if he's aware of the situation. It'll be interesting to see what he says when he comes back.
I think as well, I've rolled into one of those moods where I'm fed up of being single. I've looked at the online dating sites with a view to joining for a month or so, but it just depresses me. I've had a look at the people on the sites in my area and there's nothing really there that jumps out and would demand I joined up to make contact. I've always been useless at approaching girls the normal way in the bar etc. and I'm still unsure about the Pretty Blonde from work. I didn't see her at the last work's bash and I'm not sure if I'm going to the next one this month. I've not been out a lot recently, so getting to meet single people is not something that's regular. Maybe I will go to the work's thing after all just to get out and socialise a bit.
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