Saturday, October 04, 2025

Urgh.

I think it's fair to say that I'm not feeling 100% today. I'm not hungover, at least not in the traditional sense. I don't really get hungover. But I am definitely still tired, despite being in bed from around 10PM and not waking until after 9AM. I will probably be mentally muggy all day, and it's not a feeling I like.

Bit it was fun, even if the numbers were low because of Storm Amy. 

Quiet Girl's just texted to find out how it was. I'll reply once I get some coffee.

Thursday, October 02, 2025

Weather or not.

Storm Amy might be troublesome tomorrow. Quiet Girl has already said that she's re-evaluating her attendance at our work thing tomorrow. I'm still keen to go out, but I do see this weather keeping a lot of people away. I wouldn't be surprised if it was cancelled, but I'd hate if it was cancelled at the last minute.

Wednesday, October 01, 2025

Party time?

After D's attempt to get us out soon, I took the plunge and sent a message into the WhatsApp group with The Crowd about meeting for drinks soon.

S was quick to reply in the affirmative and so, surprisingly, was GM. Nothing as yet from FC or Mrs FC, but maybe this time we'll get something sorted. I'd be surprised if we saw each other this month, but maybe the start of November? That feels doable.

GM's already suggested a Christmas night as well. Hopefully we can do both.

It's been a while.

It was QC2's birthday yesterday. She's an older woman by about 10 months. It's nearly ten years since we had any kind of contact, and even that was a mis-dial. I miss our semi-frequent meetups at a pub for a few drinks and a chat.

Actually, now that I think about it, I really do like meetups for a few drinks and a chat. 

Tuesday, September 30, 2025

Sigh.

I went to visit my sister last night. I've not seen her in about a month, but that's not a surprise. I've posted before about the one-sided nature of our relationship. I do get an annual invite for Christmas dinner and the odd BBQ. They've asked me to do them favours like babysit or house-sit. But as I think I've blogged before, they never show up at my house, they never make a phone call just to be in touch.

And as I left their house last night after an enjoyable couple of hours conversation, my brother-in-law said "don't be a stranger".

I never am - I'm the one who always makes the effort, and it always frustrates me when they say something like that, or when their solution to my loneliness is to go and visit them. There's more to it than that. It frustrates me that they don't get that. It's not like they never visit other people. They do.

Monday, September 29, 2025

Raincheck?

D sent a message into our WhatsApp group yesterday (Me, D, FBS and Friction Guy) saying that he's free for the next three weekends. Apart from this coming Friday (work event with Quiet Girl et al.) I'm also free.

FBS was vague in her response.

"Yes" but also "Husband's away for three weeks this month".

I don't know if that means she's free or not. She hasn't suggested a date, so maybe not? It could be November before we meet up, despite conversations starting in August.

Sunday, September 28, 2025

Out of the blue, again.

I had a dream last night where I was working, but I can't really explain what the work was. I feel it was like some data analysis for health insurance or something? My boss was someone that actually used to be my boss a few years back. We didn't really see eye-to-eye as she was extremely pedantic about stuff that just made life harder for no real benefit.

I also got paired up with an attractive short brunette woman. I'm convinced this was either Quiet Girl or R. I'm leaning heavily towards it being R. She was being very clingy and I mean that literally - being tactile to the point of not letting go, and the dream was mostly about me trying to get my own space.

It's interesting in that I've not thought about R in... a decade? The last time I do recall thinking about R was when FP and I were in London in September 2014 and took a day trip to Brighton which is where R was living at the time. CAB, too, but that's not relevant to this post. I go and try and find her, but she's never had any social media presence. I doubt that's changed now.

Saturday, September 27, 2025

What's in a name?

Years ago, when I worked alongside Friction Guy, FBS, D etc. I mentored a guy who was about six years younger than I was. It became a running joke that he was Ruuude Jnr or Ruuude 2. They claimed that we were effectively lookalikes, but I thought they were taking the piss. Their opinion was based mainly due to the fact we had similar hairstyles more than anything else. Our build and height was completely different, for starters.

However, years after I left, I was due to meet someone in a bar. As an aside, it was the pub that I first met R2. Regardless, I stood at the bar and ordered a pint. A group of people walked in and stood beside me at the bar. I recognised some of them as being ex-colleagues,but having no interest in talking to them, I ignored them.

Literally seconds later though, they kept saying a name over and over again. It took me a while to realise that they were trying to get my attention, but they weren't using my name. They were using Ruuude Jnr's name. I continued to ignore them.

It was around that time that my companion (probably G or M) turned up and we moved on. 

Friday, September 26, 2025

Out of the blue. Well, green.

In a meeting earlier, while bored, I randomly thought of the night I first slept with FA2. I can't remember if I blogged about it before, but I'd be surprised if I hadn't.

I was out with school friends. BW invited out FA2. FA2 turned up wearing her "I'm going to get it" outfit. All that really meant was jeans,  a see-through green blouse and a green Wonderbra. We'd had a previous conversation where she explained that's what she would wear to make an impression on a guy.

We'd already spent many hours on her sofa making out at this stage, but I still didn't grasp that the person she wanted top make an impression on was me. At least not until that night until  she dragged me upstairs back at her place.

Anyway, I genuinely don't know why that random thought popped into my head at 230 PM  this afternoon... but it did.

Thursday, September 25, 2025

Fantastic.

Over the past week or so, I have been binging super hero films. Last night, it was the most recent Fantastic Four film, and tonight it was the 2015 version.

Both were OK. The latter more memorable for starring the lovely Kate Mara than anything else, and especially as Quiet Girl was on my mind from our earlier interaction. I've pointed out that I do get a QG vibe off Kate Mara, haven't I?

Confirmation.

Quiet Girl messaged earlier to say that she's put her name forward for next week's work social event. Stalky Guy is going, too, so that's the basis for a good evening. At least until about 9 PM when Quiet Girl will trundle off home.

Stalky Guy and I may call it quits around that same time, but we often stay out later if the vibe is good. 

But it's a week away, too early to be making actual plans. 

Urgh.

I think it's fair to say that I'm not feeling 100% today. I'm not hungover, at least not in the traditional sense. I don't r...